Moment tale

Am i Susceptible to depression?

2012-02-02T15:30:00.000-08:00

Salam,

Talking about depression, i remember a period of prolonged low mood during my time in college and failing easter exam in my first year medical school. how i kept everything in me for so long i started to feel it engulfing me from inside. i dont think i was clinically depress but a persistent low mood is definitely not fun.

that was definitely a dark time in the past. to tell the truth, i am traumatised to ever come back to my college again due to the past experience. a lot of people enjoy their time there, but not me.

i wonder if i am a kind of person who is susceptible to depression. i hv very little close friends, difficult to connect to people, introvert, quiet and not very close to my own family. i hv small social support if i need some emotional support. my response to conflicts with people usually is become more quiter which of course is unnoticeable by other people since that is what i usually am. i know my method of sulking is not cute and does not functionally help resolving the conflict. usually it will make it even worse. i am so restricted by myself, sometimes i cant even express myself.

it is nice being quiet sometimes. i dont need to join on those petty talks in which i am not interested in and potentially could pile up more sins.

i dont know. i feel like i hv a bad personality on myself. is there anyway i can be more chatterbox? be a bit more impulsive. just a bit more so that i dont hesitate to raise my hand during class to ask question, to talk to people and to start a move on people i am attracted to.

Evanescence- Lithium

Azam tahun baru?

2011-12-31T10:22:00.000-08:00

Salam,

Blogger new layout ni nampak agak annoying, kinda hate it. Probably I just need some time to get use to the new layout.

So new year, time of the year when people put up their new resolutions. A culture that I don't normally keen to participate in. My main argument is - i hate new year. I dont understand why people celebrate it until 6 years ago because for me, it meant the new school term would open in less than a week. I still dont understand the need to celebrate it now though other than one free holiday for the workforce.

Anyhow, a teacher of mine posted on her wall about her new resolution (since it's new year, duhh). She has not decided her new resolution yet and was in the process of deciding one. She said- without any resolution, there will be no aim and progress and without them, we are embarassing ourselves in front of Allah. Hmm I never see it that way before. Her statement was an eye opener to me. I have a lot of aims in my life and most of the time, they are unachievable because I dont focus enough. so i think maybe i should think of what i want to aim for next year and plan on the next steps. So, basically my new year resolution.

1) Medical school- Pass medical school.

Oh, sorry, I am really not in the mood of striking for excellency in medical school. Not after they keep putting exams after holidays, thus making all holidays that I have in england miserable. Inlcuding this one.

2) Clarinet and flute- No time to spend much on this since the first resolution (to PASS medical school) takes so much of my time. The only way to invest my time with music now is to participate in medic's orchestra and random performances that i put on youtube which i havent done for almost 7 months now. i should make one for the my parents' upcoming birthdays.

3) Gaining weight- A lot of people keep complaining on how they easily gained weight after living in the uk (or any other places in europe) and compliment me saying i havent change one bit- in term of body shape. i dont know why. in a way, i am very grateful to Allah for giving me this body than can take in as many calories as I wanted but maintain the same weight. but, it would be quite nice to be bigger. you know, looks a bit more intimidating.

i think i should be more specific in here. i am planning to be more muscular, not just gain weight- that could mean anything. so... 65kg by june? thats 10 kg from now- about 2 kg per month i suppose

4) learning language- i've been meaning to learn some french or spanish. but as you can see, those three plans above already take a lot of my time. probably need to wait this one until summer time.

5) reading- i am very greedy when it comes to shopping books. but when it turns to reading them, there are just so many external factors that prevent me from doing so. im going to reserve this one for summer holiday as well

6) drawing- so many ideas in mind... but so little time to materialise the ideas. i really need to produce one artwork after the exam. one aim in progress!

7) piano- umm not going to elaborate more on this. 15 minutes a day would be enough? just practice on the scales

8) ending my solo status- should be on top of the wish list lol. hello, new year <3 <3 <3

9) video games- we need to be realisitic on our resolution dont we? since video games are already incorporated into my life so closely, i think it is reasonable to put them in my resolution as well so that 1) as a medium to let off some steam and 2) i can manage my time better for other things once video games issues are put aside.

im on a project of compiling memories from all the video games that i played before in my laptop. the to do list is still quite long but we can do it bit by bit.

Florence and the Machine- The Dog Days are over

Honestly, i dont understand what the song means, but i am going to translate it as- play time is over, it is time to take life seriously (a bit)

Out of norm

2011-12-19T17:57:00.000-08:00

Salam,

So it has been months I believe since I last post anything on my blog. There's nothing to babble around so I decided not to, although my life is getting much more interesting. And it's like a vicious cycle, once you stop blogging for a long time, you feel awkward to write anything and continue not writing- until you had an epiphany to do it.

Clinical year has been fine. Only the workloads are torturing. However, I think I am doing just fine in medical school at the moment.

I am writing just to pour out what's in my mind. Facebook is not a good medium to do it since it is too public and to much judgment around. Plus I hate people who keeps babbling about their emotions on facebook especially about their failed relationship so I don't think others will appreciate my expressive status.

I just had this 'motivational talk' about ...... ummm.... I don't think there was any title given for that talk. Just a motivational talk I supposed. One thing that I learned most from it was we often try to sync ourselves to everyone around us. An act for us to win other's acceptance and trust. It is a normal behaviour since we are social beings, we need to act within permissible society's boundaries to feel accepted by a society. On the other hand, society creates rules and regulations for individuals within it so everyone in the society can interact in harmony. Rules and regulations in here don't mean just law. They include belief systems, cultures and customs.

However, sometimes we adhere to much on the 'society rules' that it often traps ourselves. For instance, certain things are taboo to be discussed openly and the best way to shut it away is to ignore their existence. This works on society level because more often the decision is agreed by majority member of the society. And we like to use 'majority rule' because it is the easiest way to make decision and for politicians, to gain votes. The problem with majority power is the neglection on the minority.

Take an example that I learned from my ethic class- a story of christians and lions. In that story, the christians was a minority group compared to the rest of the society (I can't remember who they are). It was a majority decision for the christians to be eaten by the lions for entertainment. A story which I believe everyone would think in this context the 'majority rule' rule is being misused. That is probably quite extreme for my point above with some explicit and gore contents. But the point is, this method often sacrifices the minority to justify on the decisions. Depends on the discussions, some choices may have little impact on the minorities but some may affect a huge part of their lives- like the example above.

This probably has been quite far away from what I want to say initially. But I think once in a while we need to get perspective out from of our norm. Out from what the society believes. And I am going to try it.

For the record, I am not conveying majority rule is a bad thing. It is one option that we use to make judgment on everyday lives. Just want people to know that there is a limitation on it. And we have to do it by the way, because we can't satisfy everyone. We would NOT do it if we can provide everything for everyone. But the world is limited to what it has and choices need to be made and that is why we do it.

Just in some instance where I see the society is too stuck up for what it believes (or probably just me too stuck up on what I believe) I think there might be an alternative view about it. Something I need to look for out of society comfort zone. Probably something within me

Am trying to find strength....

Witnessing a death scene

2011-09-16T17:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

This week has been quite exhausting for me. It was like 9 to 5 everyday. I try to look it on the brightside really, since I have been really sedentary last year, I thought this is a good wake up call to shake me up from my own world.

And today things are just all out of my expectation. Tutorials are just too much informative, no time to clerk any patient, on call and a cardiac arrest.

I was only hoping to try on venipuncture or clerk patients during on call but I got more that what I bargained for. I actually felt so priviledge being treated so nicely by the staff around. And thank God for my genius partner, Andy. He helped me so much during the on call. I might just sit in the ward idlely watching people passing by and not learning anything if he was not there.

However, the main event during the on take was a cardiac arrest and what happened after that. Before the cardiac arrest happened, we clerked the patient with a consultant (and the consultant is really nice, he really cracked us open with knowledge-although I didnt understand most of the things he said but I really appreciated it). The patient seemed really nice other than the fact that she was a bit confused and shut down peripherally. It didnt occur to me at all that she is going to have a cardiac arrest.

But it happened. Everyone rushed off to that patient's bed. I was really confused at that time, but I know it was emergency. It really looked like what I normally watched in television just without the defibrillator and it happened in a ward rather than in theatre. I wonder if that scene might frighten other patients around. It took maybe about 20 minutes until the emergency team started to giving up on her. There was nothing left to do actually- her pulses were dying, pupils dilated- it was like she was shutting down. The consultant, as the leader of the team realised that and did a quick poll to finalise decision. In my mind in that time, flashed an anime hero who would never give up on the patient and just continue to resuscitate the patient til the last heart beat and the patient just might magically wake up. But I quickly realised that real world dont behave that way. In cases like this, results arent always judged by attempts. There is a greater power that control the outcomes of the event. Our attempts are very insignificant compared to that power.

And then I saw how the consultant broke the news to the patient's husband. Her husband, he knew it was coming-"the thing that I feared most" as he put it in his word. But the literal sentence of "your wife just passed away" that actually made him cry. I tried not to drop my tears as well. It came a little bit late for me that someone just passed away (I was mostly confused before that). I dont know her but witnessing that made me kinda sad as well. That was a very disheartening event for the whole team. Makes the staff feels like they should have done something, but there is nothing really that they could have done. Even the consultant, whom I believe must have experienced it loads in his life felt helpless when it actually happened. Of all people that night, I believe I was the most unhelpful of all. Nevertheless, it was a good experience, despite being too much dramatic than I would expect for my first on take.

When I see someone dying like this, one song would play in my brain

Rabbani- Pergi Tak Kembali

Who could have guess that the angel of death was in the ward that night?

A traumatic experience with patient

2011-09-13T16:07:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Yesterday I felt kind of sh***y. This third year apparently comes with more challenges than what I thought.

Let me tell the story. Yesterday, I am supposedly to not have any class at all. So this ample time should be spent meeting patients for clerking. Clerking is basically taking patient's history and performing physical examinations. And since my class is like 30 minutes away by bus, I reckon I could spend the time slacking off on bed. So I came to hospital after lunch. Apparently all my other peers were already there since 9.00 in the morning in which I was probably still on bed. And I asked around if there are any patients free to be clerked. And almost all of them have been clerked in the morning. Like they say, early birds get the worms. And the hospital environment was unfamiliar to me so I was a bit malu malu kucing

Well, I was about to give up but luckily I found a patient in urology ward(related to kidney and bladder) kind enough to spend his afternoon with me. He was doozing off before I came so I felt a bit bad for disturbing his afternoon nap.

Taking history from him was not an easy task either. He is a 70+ years old patient so his hearing ability is a bit impaired. And the mixture of nervousness, my accent and my voice probably won't help the situation because most of the time he asked me to repeat my questions sometimes up to four times. Our conversation was disturbed a couple of times by a consultant and later his wife. By the time his wife came for a visit, he seemed a bit glad and at the same time eager for me to leave. The conversation abruptly finished and I didnt manage to get his full history. I took the hint and just awkwardly thanked the patient and leave.

That was not a good start for my clerking portfolio. Looking at how we finished the conversation, I feel embarassed now to see him again to complete the clerking process. Ughh, I guess I just need to start looking for new patients now.

0 out of 32 patient clerked!

So I spent the rest of the day listening to this song

Katy Perry- Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F)

Get a lift!

2011-09-10T09:00:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

So it has been a week now. So far it has been all introductions and a few recaps of what we did last year. I think most of what we are going to do this year is going to be a recap of last year though.

What do I mean by a recap?

The whole 1 year and a term is compressed in about 16 weeks. In addition to that, clerking 32 patients, 8 on calls, 4 gp sessions, outpatient clinics, an ssc (sort of like a coursework), a long case presentation, watching various medical and surgical procedures and brushing history taking and examination skills on all systems. So far I only know 5 systems, but I believe there are more.

Thats what we call a junior medicine and surgery module.

However, looking at the third year itself, if I can be a lot more proactive and hardworking, everything can be done. It seems like a hectic timetable, but like I said, if I can change my habits right now, I can have adequate amount of time to do everything.

And I think I am very fortunate to be placed somewhere out of the city of Bristol for this module. I pay 3.70 pounds everyday to go to hospital (which is now is my class) and it takes 20 minutes approximately to get to the class by bus. That means I can get a lot of job done before I decided to go home. If my class is nearby, I will most likely go home straight after class > playing with laptop > not productive > stress during exam period. I guess 3.70 pounds a day is the price for my productivity?

Speaking of going to class, everyone in my hospital either has a car or get lifted by people with car to class. There are only two persons taking bus everyday to class. One of them is me. Another friend of mine, who is currently not in the same hospital with me encouraged me to ask people for a lift. The awkward moment when you try to get a lift from someone who you barely speak with. I think I need to be friendly to people first before jumping for lifts. Like they say, build a rapport.

Back to my tight schedule. One good thing that comes with it is it makes me distracted from my personal problem. I know it may sound like I am running away from problem but it does the job to ease my mind. Don't want to take live too seriously sometimes or I might hurt myself.

Stacie Orico- More To Life

Bye Malaysia, Welcome to UK

2011-09-01T09:01:00.001-07:00

Assalamualaikum

The dreaded time has come, time to travel up to 24 hours back to the UK. Why did I choose to buy a transit ticket?

Perasaan bercampur baur nak balik ni. Malas, gembira, sedih, penat. Travelling is indeed stressful. And that makes me rethink if I want to go back to Malaysia mext year. Probably there is nothing to do in the UK but I prefer that over travelling for at least 14 hours straight.

Ahh dah la naik naik ni terus start class. Biasela, raya ni asyik makan ketupat ngan rendang habes semua ilmu ilmu berderet deret keluar. Uit, dah la bnyk dapat duit raya, segan weiii. Dah nak kawen bole dapat duit raya lagi. ummm, nak kawen ke?

Depress sungguh ye entry kali ni. Macam org tgah PMS.

Actually ade bende lain dalam otak ni, tp bukan kat sini nak meluahkannya. Ade dalam blog lain. He he, mampu nak buat 2 blog serentak ye? Tu sebab 30 days challenge tu x hbes hbes lagi dari dulu. Kite sambung kat UK la nanti ye. For some reasons, kat sane saya rase lbeh rajin (sedikit) dr dok kat Malaysia ni. Kat Malaysia dah mcm panda dah makan tido, makan tido. x berwawasan sungguh.

Kan dah merapu rapu entry ni. Soryla kalo mcm terbazir mase korg bukak blog ni. Makruh terus jadinya kan.

Day 17 - How you hope your future will be like

2011-08-28T03:55:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Sebenarnya ade cerita y bole dbgtau tp disebabkan rase bersalah/ segan/ malu y teramat, rasenye x perlu la kot nak ceritakan kisah tu. kisah kfc di malam bulan ramadhan

nway, utk menggembirakan hati y masih lg terasa bersalah y teramat, jom kita teruskan game ni. i know dah berbulan dah tinggal but hey, this is my blog. i play by own rule. *statement confident lepas dah bnyk menyusahkan org*

saya ni bukan la visionary sngt pun. nak jd pakar ape pun masih x decide btol btol lagi. tahun depan nak pg melancong kat europe ke x pun x decide lg. bak kata doris day- que sera sera. tp ape ape pun kalo boleh sblum mati ni saya nak tunaikan la bende bende y saya rasa penting dulu.

Doris Day- Que Sera Sera

antaranya ialah menunaikan haji. ntah bile la bole nak pg buat haji ni ek. masalah skrg ialah pd waktu musim haji saya ada kelas. tp kalo nak diikutkan waktu bila dah start bekerja nanti lagi la x de masa nak tunaikan haji. apepun, sngt sngt berharap akan diizinkan Allah kemudahan menunaikan haji. hmm, kalo gini dah nak kene kumpul duit dah dr skrg ni.

disebabkan saya MARA sponsored student, jd antara harapan saya y lain ialah agar hutang saya ngan MARA bole cepat diselesaikan. jln paling mudah ialah ~~menang loteri~~ graduate dr med school, cari keje, dpt gaji n bayar. saya sbnrnye berharap dpt buat junior doctor saya di uk, tp skrg ni disebabkan masalah recession kat europe, diorg dah ketatkan visa utk kerja kat sana. kadang kadang saya terfikir gak kalo x lepas med school ni ape plan lain saya. bole try jd kartunis, kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang. tak pun belajar menjahit, jd tukang jahit. bukak warung ke. ape pun kita kene yakin rezeki tu di tangan Allah dan setiap org ade peruntukan sendiri. dan ingatlah bahawa harta benda hanyalah sebahagian drpd rezeki.

impian yang lain ialah nak menimang cahaya mata. over x? belum ada calon lagi dah nak anak. nak anak comel comel.

n my ultimate goal is, mati dlm iman. super ultimate goal of course lah jannah. tp laluan nak ke jannah kene la ada iman. jd saya kene berusaha keras utk mempertahankan iman especially dlm dunia y dipenuhi fitnah skrg ni. kdg kdg dengar cerita org y tengah nazak digoda oleh syaitan menimbulkan rasa takut jugak di hati. if that is going to happen to me (nauzubillah min zalik), can i handle the temptation? kene doa bnyk bnyk ni. semoga terus dilindungi iman saya sehingga mati.

10 wierdest final fantasy weapons

2011-08-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I am longing to make this post since last week while a was still addicted to play final fantasy x. One thing that impresses me as a video gamer is how creative final fantasy revolutionised stuff that are not normally seen as weapons into deadly arms. So, let see what we have on the list.

*This post is just for fun. I have no intention to criticise Square's creativity. I am an FF lover too*

10) Squall's Gunblade

Don't let the appearance fool you because the gun is just a decoration. I don't know why they replace the normal end of a sword with a gun. For a better grip? But one thing for sure, it does make the sword seems kinda cool. And since him, Lightning in FF XIII also uses the same weapon, but hers can shoot. That makes her cooler while Squall's a bit crap.

9) Rinoa's Blaster Edge

This is what I got after googling the name of Rinoa's weapon. I just have no idea what the name was before I looked it up in the internet. Mr. Google saved the day. It works by projecting a blade out of the base, hits the target and returns to the base which is bound to Rinoa's left arm. One thing that makes me thinking is how complicated it is to handle this weapon in real life. Imagine if the blade does not come back to it's base. Plus the possibilities that it can chops Rinoa's arm whole. How disasterous! It must takes a lot of practice to use this weapon. Apparently Rinoa is not a SeeD but her capability of using the most complicated weapon in the game is pretty impressive

8) Hope's Boomerang

Perhaps not quite weird since Yuffie also uses the same type of weapon and Yuffie's are way bigger so hers should be stranger. It just he really takes a lot of times in attacking using his boomerang which is kind of annoying. I am so thankful he does not start as a commando. And how did he get his weapon? Apparently he brought it in his pocket. It is a foldable boomerang. Makes me want one too...

7) Wakka's Ball

I am so tempted to make the ball plural. It will be 'Wakka's Balls'. Hehe let see how he uses that to fight fiends. Talking about using a sport equipment as weapon I remember using my badminton racket to hit my neighbour's eye. Conan Edogawa also uses ball to stop fleeing criminals sometimes. So it should not be that weird for Wakka to use balls in battle. However, Wakka has several balls (that sounds a bit weird) with thorns and sharp blades (makes it even weirder). The way he hugs the balls so closely and tightly to his body makes me wondering if that in any way hurting him. You can look for himself how he hugs his celestial weapon- World Champion in battle. That must be hurtful...

6) Vanille's Wand

It is not that weird at all to use a wand in battle. Every final fantasy has wand users that are very weak in physical attack and are always the first person to die in party. Vanille's wand is different however. It is more like a fishing rod with multiple lines and it looks like it is carved out of a sudowoodo. She uses it to 'fish' a monstrous bird once. She is also one slow attacker in the game. And when she attacks she makes a sound that... is unpleasant for certain people. I was accused for watching porn while actually it was the sound Vanille made when she was in commando position, I mean, mode. Commando mode.

5) Red XIII's hairdresses

First of all, I don't know where he places his weapon. Each time I upgraded his weapon, his appearance didn't change one bit. That did turn me off a little bit. Visual does make the thrill you know, although the increase number of slots and his physical attack did a good job to compensate his monotonous look. The more important thing is, how do you make a clip a weapon? That is definitely not lethal in real life. In the game however, Red XIII does make a good blow with his clip. Oh well, everything is possible in video games....

4) Quina's Fork

While a clip may not be deadly, a normal sized fork can definitely injure someone. And Quina's is not normal sized. Her fork can be considered as a trident. The use of fork is just to emphasise her image as a master cuisine. Not only that, she also has a move that is called Eat and in her trance mode, she can Cook a monster. She probably need more than just a fork to cook a fresh three storey sized dragon. But the most important thing in here is, she (and Jackie Chan) conveys an important message to the world that it is possible to use anything you can reach as a self defence equipment. Cutleries included.

3) Eiko's Flute

Because of her, my friend thought that it is possible to use my flute to whack burglars till death. Well yes it is possible for Eiko to do that to a 3 tonnes turtle in the game because her flute won't get damaged. Even if it breaks, gils come out of every monster she kills, so she can buy a new one each time her flutes break. To use musical instruments as weapons is just plain wrong and I am totally against it. It may look serene when she blows her flute to summon eidolons or cast white magics but when she uses it to hit a monster, eventhough with hamelin, its just outrageous.

2) Cait Sith's Megaphone

If I were Cait Sith, I will shout on the megaphone at the top of my lung, making a physical attack through a loud auditory noise. But he uses his loud hailer by knocking it to monsters' heads. People should appreciate their weapons more especially those that do not look like normal weapons. Even less interesting, most of his weapons are named based on colours. Green, blue, yellow etc. M phones. Might as well just buy a bunch of coloured sprays and spray it on one megaphone. That may do the trick. And with lower cost too.

1) Lulu's Dolls

With black mage and a doll, she ought to be called a witch. But her dolls are not made out of straw with nails on them, instead she uses cute cait sith and moogle dolls. Her celestial weapon, Onion Knight, looks like it is borrowed from FF7, a pixelated 90s video game characters with eyes as the only visible features on the face. Her physical attack is also the most time consuming in the game as she has to send her dolls strolling their small steps toward and away the enemy. It is like voodoo, her dolls have souls and only obey her order. That makes me think, she might be the cause of Chucky's madness outbreak in Child's Play. And all the toys in Toys Story too!

Which one do you guys think is the weirdest though? Anything should be in the list? I know Buster Sword should be in the list...

Hampir terlupa... my allegedly birthday song

be good to me

2011-08-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

alhamdulillah kita dah smpi ke 10 mlm terakhir ni. kalo bole perbnykkan lah amalan kan. mcm y org slalu kata, kita ni ntah bole smpi atau x ke ramadhan y seterusnya.

sblum kita meneruskan ke agenda hari ni, td saya mengikut mak saya pg melawat org meninggal dunia. anak sedara mak saya kalo x silap (berselirat sungguh family tree). meninggalnya disebabkan mandi sungai y berjangkit air kencing tikus. mcm arwah din beramboi. jd kepada adik adik di luar sana, hati hati bila nak mandi sungai atau paya ni. kalau boleh x yah la pun pg mandi mandi outdoor ni. best memg best, tp risikonya skrg bahaye.

hari ni nak maen menjwb soklan dgan menggunakan ipod secara random. caranya simple je. play your mp3 player in random mode. for each question u need to answer based on what song comes out after u press the next button. u need to put the answer no matter how silly it sounds.

game ni saya dpt drpd blog adik saya. hehe suka je maen game game camni. 30 days challenge tu x siap siap lagi. opps matila x istiqamah buat keje.

1. if someone says, "is this okay?".. you say..
if i never see your face again by maroon 5 and rihanna. lari topik y teramat. ke ni dah mabuk kerawang y teramat, org tanya lain jawab lain

2. how would you describe yourself?

oops! i did it again by britney spears (actually from my clarinet playalong cd). hmm mungkin saya x penah sedar drpd melakukan kesilapan y sama. n my nature y sngt cuai

3. what do you like in a guy/girl?

SOS by ABBA. sikap kebergantungan maybe?

4. how do you feel today?

love game by lady gaga. hah ni fitnah. hari ni x de mood jiwang jiwang ok.

5. what is your life purpose?

the ketchup song (asereje) by las ketchup. haiyoo, shallownye kalau matlamat hidup ni semata mata hanyalah utk sebotol sos tomato. n actually sos cili is thousand times better than sos tomato *dinch ketchup*

6. what is your motto?

california by phantom planet. bercita cita nak pg CA ataupun berangan bajet california girls? sentiasa hot katanya.

7. what do your friends think of you?

if this is love by the saturdays. woah, sensasi banget ni. ade 894 friends kat facebook, sume fikir bende y same ke? kalau cam gini, senang je la keje saya. pick n choose

8. what do you think of your parents?

ffx2 yuripa battle theme 2 by noriko matsueda and takahito eguchi. ni mengimbau kisah waktu kecik saya selalu bergaduh ngan mak saya ni. siap ade sekuel lagi (battle theme 2)

9. what do you think about very often?

love stoned i think she knows by justin timberlake. uh oh die tau ke? kalo die tau, habislah cintaku ini di panah petir. *eh, baru je td kata x de mood jiwang jiwang*

10. what is 2+2?
Darjat by A to Z. ye la tu kot. dua darjat y berbeza disatukan menjadi sama. matilah merepek

11. what do you think of your bestfriend(s)?

bonda by m nasir. haha klasik sngt. my best friend is my mom

12. what do you think of the person you like?

california king bed by rihanna. uish bahye ni. nak tido sekatil pulak. ke nak beli katil same same?

13. what is your life story?
diminishing returns by ali love. mungkin sebab the harder i try the worse it gets. hmm...

14. what do you want to be when you grow up?
melodies of life by emiko shiratori. mengimbau balik kisah hidup suka duka lara waktu kecik kecik kot. eh, im a grown up already!

15. what do you think when you see the person you like?

puteri sentubong by mix feat. moleq. haii x yah nak bajetla...ko bajet ko chantek sngt mcm puteri sentubong? ape ape pun, u r still my teddy bear.

16. what will you dance to at your wedding?

when you believe by mariah carey and whitney houston. huhu kafir sngt lagu. tp kan kalo lagu ni didendangkan ketika majlis perkhwinan impian saya, rasanya sngt secocok. bak kata mariah n whitney- miracle

17. what will they sing for your birthday?

the dark messenger (trance kuja theme) by nobuo uematsu. jahat sngt ke saya ni (T-T), dahla kuja pulak tu- fonen

18. what is your biggest fear?

pudar by rossa. hmm btol gak. jika diletak pd konteks y lebih besar i.e. kesihatan, harta, relationship, iman- jika semua tu pudar, apa je y kita ada. especially iman.

19. what is your biggest secret?

good vibrations by glee cast. im quite surprise cuma ade satu je lagu glee y kelua utk game ni. if this is my secret, i dont even know that i can vibrate in any way that can be good. adekah maksudnya love handle dah makin menebal?

20. what you will post this as?

be good to me by ashley tisdale. bole plak lagu ashley tisdale ni jd the final song for this post. potong stim btol. nway, enjoy~

Ashley Tisdale- Be Good To Me

setinggi tinggi terima kasih

2011-08-18T05:12:00.001-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

lepas melepaskan rintihan sanubari di blog pada post y lalu rase mcm biyatch pulak diri ni. mengeluh je keje. apa apa pun terima kasih kepada y concern n share tentang problem saya ni. org org y x pnah komen pun ade komen. korg memg a friend in need is a friend indeed.

x sangka jalan penyelesaiannya x lah sesusah y disangka. tp nak buat tu susah jugakla. mcm org biasa ckpla, easier to say than done. jln tu dah nmpk, tinggal momentum nak bergerak tu je.

insyaAllah saya akan memulakan perubahan

Katy Perry- Firework

hambek ko lagu katy perry. membakar semangat katanya

confession

2011-08-16T04:42:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hari ni nak cerita pasal family. tiap tiap kali post asyik nak cerita pasal cinta je bosan jugak.

n i think i really need to say this. i tried to say it by mouth, be im not brave enough. hopefully this can help at some level.

family saya ni mungkin bole diiktiraf sbgi family paling senyap dlm dunia. dok makan malam satu meja pun x de bende y dibualkan, mcm dok ngan orang asing. semua senyap je.

saya dok kat rumah org org lain bnyk je bende y diorg bualkan. mengutuk (as in bergurau la, bukannya mencaci maki) sesama sendiri. seronok saya tgok family bergurau senda mcm gini. kalo nak share secret pun x segan. skrg ni saya rase saya lg selesa share secret ngan kawan kawan drpd dgan keluarga sendiri.

saya penah ditegur seorg kawan saya y stay kat rumah saya. dia cakap "aku tgok ko ni x bebual pun dgan adik ko." die dgan adik saya ada bermesej mesej (saya y bagi no adik saya kat die), n adik saya mesej kat die cakap y die (adik saya) segan dgan saya, a fact that i only knew through my friend there.

sometimes i think keluarga saya ni mcm ada masalah. we r not communicating with each other. kdg kdg sedih jugak bila tgok mak saya y kene jd org tgah utk communicate dgan each other. ada sekali tu, abah tanya kat mak saya pasal saya sedangkan saya ada kat sebelah abah saya. pelik saya. what makes the wall between us?

kdg kdg saya fikir we as a family should go see a therapy or something. we only know each other through blogs and facebook. masa balik first year, pening kepala saya nak fikirkan ape y saya patut belikan utk family saya. last last saya belikan buku diary y fancy fancy kat adik pompuan saya sebab saya x tau ape y die suka (well, except for k pop. saya try cari cd k pop x jumpe)

mungkin ini la sebabnya saya rasa hari raya x berapa seronok. sebab saya rasa x semngat langsung nak balik malaysia. rasa x sabar nak balik bristol balik. rasa bosan y teramat kat rumah. kdg kdg terseksa jugak dok rumah jd tunggul ni. senyap membisu. nak bebual ngan sape?

dah lama saya teringin nak buat mcm ni tp takut bila bercerita pasal family sendiri kat public ni mcm membuka pekung di dada. habis tu sanggup ke nak simpan pekung tu berulat ulat kat dlm dada sendiri? dah lama saya pendam bende ni, lagi bnyk saya pendam semakin kurg waras saya rasa. baik luahkan saje walaupun pahit bunyinya.

Saujana- Keluarga Bahagia

clinical placement

2011-08-08T13:24:00.000-07:00

salam

second entry for the day. im on fire now, so let gets it rolling

usually in uk and ireland, the 3rd year of medical study is the start of clinical year. that means instead of sitting in the lecture hall sketching my handbooks and zooming through microscope during histology session for things that i dont even know, we r now able to visit and examine patients in hospital. not straight away after the semester opens of course.

in Bristol, students in the same year are divided into several groups and are allocated into different hospitals at random. the year is divided into two semester (not three anymore, sigh), in my case i will start the year with medicine and surgery followed by psychiatry and mdemo (not sure what the full name of mdemo but it is related to orthopaedics and ophtamology). i will have my med and surgery in north bristol, psychiatry and orthopaedics in north somerset and ophtamology in south bristol. that means im spending most of the year staying in my house in bristol city. hmm, gotta stuff the x box away now.

ade berita sedih siketla. bile tgok list name tu, name die x de. siape die? si welsh tu la. mungkin dia intercalate, jd x terus naik 3rd year. well that give me a room for me to move on, doesnt it? hopefully so.

so now im a free man again! (macamlah sebelum ni dah berpunya). lepas ni bolehla jalan2 dgan confidentnya macam betty suarez. n the hunt begins. lol

with that, let sing a farewell song to my crush. goodbye *a**ie bear.

Lea Michele (Glee)- What I Did For Love

lepas ni kene turunkan gambo die dr almari...

ade new post

2011-08-08T08:06:00.000-07:00

salam

wah ade new post! pelik bin ajaib. dah lame off blog ni

i was a bit distracted lately. with a new laptop n then a few things on hand to cover. so i didnt get the time to think and reflex onto myself.

sempena bulan ramadan y baraqah ni, ramai y berazam azam. ada tu duniawi (menguruskan badan etc.) ada tu nak lebih mendekatkan diri dgan Tuhan. as long as it goes to the positive side its alright. jgan ada y berazam nak tmbh maksiat pd bulan ramadan pulak. ni lah waktu y paling sesuai nak reflex n measure tahap keimanan kita n seberapa hebat kita menahan nafsu. kalo bulan lain ade syaitan pelbagai pangkat menyerbu, jd result kepada pemerhatian kita akan ada ralat background.

saya berazam nak completekan terawikh sebulan ni. kecik je azam saya. buat masa ni 8 rakaat pun cukupla. insyaAllah 10 malam terakhir boleh tmbh jd 20 rakaat. di samping tu, saya gak berazam utk kurgkan distraction distraction dlm hidup. dah 2 hari success ^^

but it made me thinking. about myself. hish pg masjid pun x selamat rupanya. bende ni duniawi je, tp susah la jugak nak elakkan drpd memikirkannya. pg, ptg, siang malam fikir bende y sama. tp x tau nak buat apa. nak diluah mati bapak nak ditelan mati anak. kumam je la bak kata org.

i really need someone to tell this to. x naklah tgu smpi nasi menjadi bubur. saya pun x suka makan bubur nasi. but the problem is, i dont have the courage.

not yet maybe? or ever?

Orianthi- Courage

Day 16- Something you don't leave the house without

2011-07-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

Salam

kite kembali semule ke segmen 30 days challenge!!! (masih ade lg separuh lagi...) sblum tu, something is wrong with facebook n youtube lately. asyik x bole bukak. adekah ni perancangan US melalui CIA dan FBI? mungkin ni angkara zionis, yahudi, kristian, freemason dan sbginye :P

ok, senang je soklan ni.

1) ipod

memg x bole kelua tanpe ipod. nanti sepanjang perjalanan akan rase kosong. di manakah suara suara glee utk menghiburkanku sepanjang perjalanan? a must gadget when leaving house. smbil dgar lagu, smbil berangan dok kat atas pentas menyanyi lagu lagu note tinggi y boleh pecah tekak menyanyi. kdg kdg kalo x de org kat keliling saya akan menyanyi kat tgah tgah jln.

2) kunci

obviously la kan. kalo x de kunci camne nak masuk rumah balik. tp penah r beberapa kali tertinggal kunci kat rumah. ahh punye r frustrated. nak kene call housemates sorg sorg. dorg kalo reti angkat phone x pe gak. (samala cam saya). ade skali tu stgah jam saya dok kat luar rumah. ketuk ketuk pintu x de org jwb. call org pun x de sape y jwb. last last saya dok kat hallway tu melalak smbil dgar ipod. see, how ipod is very helpful.

3) wallet

ni kalo nak jln keluar drpd hall building. kene ade. mane tau kalo jln jln ternampak baju baju murah. ataupun 'ter'pesong sket masuk primark. harusla bershopping little little. selain tu dlm wallet saya ade debit card, ic, student id, tesco clubcard, subway card, gym membership card, bums card, lesen memandu (L n P), kad BSN, MAS enrich card, MDU card, cafe nero card, nando's card, GAME store card,~~my crush's photo,~~ diskaun card kedai buku pasir gudang n last but not least, u r my best friend piece of paper.

4) phone

ni bawak supaya kalo tertinggal kunci bole call housemates. biasenye sebab saya berjln smbil dgar ipod, bile phone berbunyi saya x dgar. smpi smpi rumah je tgok phone, "u hv 3 misscalls". but thats the closest moment of me with my phone. kalo kat bilik, ntah mane mane saya cmpk phone saya tu. selepas beberapa hari terbongkang dlm bilik, baru nak check phone "u hv 7 msgs". (exaggerate saja tuh, biasenye x de sape pun y nak msg ngan saya)

dan ini mengingatkan saya bahwa saya dah kehilangan phone kaler pink saya tu. phone nokia supernova. masih kekal di ingatan saya, semua org memuji betapa cantiknya phone itu.walaupun nampak feminin sket. but thats the first phone that i bought. beli kat low yat dgan harga rm500. now he is gone (yes, my phone is a he) and is replaced with my mom's asus phone. which is pretty sucks.

oleh it, saya dedicate lagu ni utk phone nokia supernova saya. rest in peace (or if u r used by another person, serve him/her good)...... (umm on a second thought, just crash urself out, berani die amik henset aku)

P. Diddy feat Faith Evans, 122- I'll Be Missing You

Kenapa Politik Kotor?

2011-07-11T14:20:00.000-07:00

Salam

Walaupun memg dah beberapa hari x update pasal challenge 30 days tu, tp wat mase ni kite letak tepi dulu ye bende tu. ade bende y jari saya rase berdarah darah nak update, otak x bole rehat kalo x update.

Malaysia skrg telah digegarkan oleh BERSIH 2.0 (kenapa mesti BERSIH 2.0 bukan BERSIH 2 je, bole ade BERSIH 2.1 ke? saja melawak...) pd 9 Julai y lalu. ramai org mula bersuara selepas tu sama ada pro atau anti kepada rally berkenaan. x kurg juge y atas pagarnye.

dan bnyk video telah dihasilkan drpd rally ni. ade satu video y saya tertarik bile bace komennye. bukanlah tertarik sbnrnye, more to "biar beno pak cik ni tulis cam ni?"

komen berbunyi (lebih kurg): "....x de gunenye membersihkan politik skrg ni, sebab politik memg bende y kotor...."

saya x faham ape maksud pak cik berkenaan (saya x tahu pun jantina dan umur penulis tu, tp panggil pak cik mcm sedap je) tp saya mentafsirkannya dgan satu cara. bahwa politik tu memg bende y kotor. mcm tempat pembuangan sampah. saya berasa kasihan/simpati melihat komen demikian mungkin sebab pak cik tu dah terlalu trauma dgan politik negara kita smpi terkeluar statement sedemikian. mungkin juga kerana pak cik tu x pernah dpt melihat politik y indah.

kenapa politik kotor? sebelum kita jawab soalan tu, kite kene faham ape maksud politik dulu. menurut wikipedia politik (diambil drpd perkataan greek "berkaitan dgan rakyat"), ialah proses di mana sekumpulan manusia mengambil sebuah keputusan. term ni biasa digunakan dlm pemerintahan kerajaan/negara. juga boleh dilihat sbgi hubungan berkumpulan atau sistem sosial y melibatkan kuasa. panjang maksudnya, jd anda bole check sendiri la. tp, pendek kata, politik ialah seni memerintah kerajaan.

jd mestikah politik itu kotor? Rasulullah S.A.W. juga pernah memerintah negara sblum ni. Rasulullah juga berpolitik. dgan termeterainye piagam Madinah, maka sahlah Madinah sbgi nergara Islam pertama dan Rasulullah sbgi pentadbirnya. Madinah juga diiktiraf oleh kerajaan sekitarnye sbgi sebuah negara y sah melalui perjanjian dan hubungan diplomatik antara Madinah dan kerajaan kerajaan luar seperti Mekah, Mesir, Damsyik etc.

"mungkin sebab sistem politik y kita amalkan skrg ni kotor, sebab tu politik menjijikkan. waktu zaman Rasulullah mana ada gune demokrasi. sistem syura la sistem Islam"

hanya disebabkan sesuatu perkara tu x wujud ketika zaman Rasulullah x menjadikannya kotor/ haram. kalau x, kereta, internet, kapal terbang, tv, sambutan Maulidur Rasul, konsert amal etc. tu sume pun haram gak. memglah ianya bid'ah, tetapi x semua perkara bid'ah tu haram.

tmbhn pula, Islam x menyediakan model politik y khusus. Rasulullah sendiri x pernah bgtau camne nak melantik ketua umat Islam selepas kewafatan baginda. beberapa sahabat berkumpul, bermesyuarat dan melantik Saidina Abu Bakar R.A. sbgi pengganti. pelantikan khalifah khalifah Islam y lain x semuanya dilantik melalui sistem y sama. Umar Al Khattab dilantik melalui wasiat, Uthman ibn Affan dilantik melalui demokrasi dan Ali bin Abi Talib dilantik melalui desakan rakyat ketika umat Islam kucar kacir pd saat itu. belum ditambah lagi sistem monarki y diamalkan oleh kerajaan kerajaan Islam selepas itu. kalau mengikut sejarah Islam, bukankah kita ada bnyk cara utk memilih pemimpin?

jd politik secara sendirinya merupakan sesuatu y neutral. kalau diamalkan dgan baik, ianya menjadi indah, kalau diamalkan dgan sebaliknya, busuk jadinya. saya dahulu pun tergolong dlm golongan y membenci politik jugak. tiap tiap hari saya lihat politicians ni kejenye memfitnah je keje, baik y kerajaan ataupun pembangkang. sebut politicians, kelua kes liwat, bunuh, rasuah, video lucah dan sebagainya. tp bile saya faham peranan media dalam politik ni barulah saya faham akan situasi sebenar.

demokrasi pertama disebut dlm empayar Greek dan bentuknya seperti hari ini bnyk disumbang oleh Rom (bukanlah ciptaan U.S. seperti y saya lihat pd status facebook seseorg, n seriously kenapa semua bende mesti nak salahkan U.S.??). sistem ni diambil pakai oleh negara kita sebagai model politik selepas merdeka. malangnya, sistem y diambil drpd British ni x diamalkan seperti mana Britain mengamalkannya. memglah, Britain tu kafir etc. etc., tapi sistem demokrasi y mereka amalkan nampak lebih Islam drpd negara kita. lebih adil dan telus. rakyat mereka dibenarkan brdemonstrasi secara aman utk menegur kerajaan manakala kita nak keluarkan suara tegur kerajaan pun ade kemungkinan boleh disumbat dlm penjara.

demokrasi ialah memberi peluang semua org dalam negara to express themselves selagi menepati perlembagaan. bukanlah mengikut ape saja y kerajaan/pemerintah katakan. jika pemerintah buat silap, ianya merupakan hak rakyat (dalam sistem demokrasi) dan tanggungjawab rakyat (mengikut Islam) utk menegur pemerintah. x de siapa di dunia ni y perfect, termasuklah pemerintah negara. once in a while we r bound to make mistake. n ianya merupakan tanggungjawab org di sekitar kita utk menegur.

menulis pnjg pnjg ni, hampir terlupa saya nak letak lagu. lagu hari ni drpd Maher Zain, freedom. semoga sistem demokrasi di Malaysia akan bebas drpd kepincangan

Maher Zain -Freedom

Day 15 - A TV show you’re currently addicted to

2011-07-07T06:24:00.000-07:00

Salam

Huh, selepas beberapa soklan sensasi, tibe tibe die bg soklan ni pulak.

saya nak jwb berita tv3 pkul 8 mlm sebab saya rasa sngt humorous. asyik nak ketawa je tgok berita politik. tp berita tv3 disiarkan waktu org nak smbhyg isyak, jd x dpt la saya nak tgok smpi hbes. zass! x pe 15 minit terakhir cerita sukan je.

ok back into serious mode.

ade bnyk series y saya ikut. antara y best saya rasa ialah:

1) Glee

saya suke glee sebab diorg slalu nyanyi lagu lagu sedap. kalo diorg nyanyi lagu y saya tahu, terlompat lompat saya nyanyi sekali. skrg ni saya ketagih dgar lagu ni:

Glee (Naya Rivera)- Science Fiction Double Feature

tp saya x suke drama drama cintan cintun dlm crite glee ni la. skjap clash skjap rujuk balik. for God sakes, they r students. x bole ke buat diorg ade masalah akademik ke, keracunan makanan kat kantin ke, hari kantin ke. tiap tiap hari nak rujuk, nak clash, payah la hidup. lagi satu, saya rasa semua character x develop dgan sekata. tiap tiap minggu asyik rachel je menyanyi. asyik rachel je y berdrama. dah naik muak dah dgar suara die.

but i still love glee <3<3<3 im a gleek!

2) desperate housewives

saya rasa DH sngt kelakar. bile part part y kelakar tu, tersembur keluar nasik saya ketawa bile tgok cerita ni smbil mkn.

tp dah smpi season 7, rasenye cerite ni mcm dah nak hbes modal nak carik drama drama best. mcm kat wisteria lane tu semua housewives dah pnah curang kat husband diorg (kecuali susan mayer). hmpir semua dah pnah bercerai. n then tiap tiap tahun akan ade pembunuh dok kat jln tu.

hopefully, this series will get a happy ending

3) Family Guy

bygkan kalau korg ade sorg ayah y retarded tahap melampau smpi bole lemas dlm semangkuk sup. begitulah kisahnya dlm family griffin ni. its a comedy show criticising and making jokes to almost every issue in the world. memg x kering gusi tgok crite ni. cume saya rase season 7 n 8 x brape best.

mcm nak tulis pnjg lg. tp takut pnjg sngt. jd tu je la kot. cerita cerita y saya ikuti buat masa ni.

p/s- how i met your mother pun mcm best gak.

Day 14 - Who are you?

2011-07-06T19:57:00.000-07:00

Jessie J- Who You Are

salam

sori lame melesap. sejak balik je ke malaysia ni terus mandom dgan aktiviti blogging. bnyk je event y berlaku sejak akhir akhir ni. dgan isu panas kat malaysia ni makin panas saban hari. tp saya teruskan juga dgan sesi soal jwb ni. (haiyooo, dah lbey sebulan x hbes hbes lg challenge ni)

kali ni saya wakilkan jessie j tolg jwbkan soklan. atau tolg tanyekan soklan. mane mane y sesuai la.

soklan ni sngt broad la. n quite rude. "who you are?" mcm "sape kau?"

jwpn cliche saya: saya merupakan hamba Allah y dijadikan sbgai khalifahNya di muka bumi ni. sentap kan jawapan?

tambah lagi sket: saya merupakan seorg rakyat Malaysia y sngt sayangkan negaranya dan tak mempunyai setitik keinginan utk menggugat keamanan negara. saya juga merupakan seorg pelajar di universiti di UK, course medicine y akan kembali ke sana pd bulan september kelak.

saya pun x tau nak letakkan ape lg. soklan ni sngt general. plus saya pun masih lg mencari identiti diri. bunyi mcm ada krisis identiti kan?

em tu je kot utk soklan ni. mcm x de mood pulak nak menulis. insyaAllah saya akan try being more consistent dlm blogging ni.

Day 13 - What kind of person attracts you?

2011-06-28T15:15:00.000-07:00

Salam

Post ni agak segera sebab saya dah nak balik malaysia. im going to miss bristol so much. huk huk.

2 bulan je cuti. x yah la nak berdrama lbey lbey. plus malaysia pun best gak.

oh ye. nampaknya soklan hari ni agak sentap n straight to the point. what kind of person attracts me?

again i play on the safe side. x bole nak cover too much. terlalu sensasi katanya.

saya pernah ada history berdating sekejap sbnrnye. dlm sebulan dua je. saya pun x tau ape y menariknya pd diri saya ni smpi ada sorg sangkut plak. i wasnt ready at that time. n probably she is not the right person. jd boleh kata hubungan kami terbengkalai mcm tu je. maybe die pun dah naik jemu asyik die je y kene text saya tanya kabar. saya x pnah pun nak text die. lol

tp skrg saya asyik fikir pasal bende ni. semakin desperate nampaknya. threshold pun makin rendah. dulu susah nak cari org y cukup cute smpi dpt menambat hati saya. (fuh sensasi ayat) tp skrg org org tepi jln bg surat kabar metro free pun nampak comel. kalo bejalan kat bndr asyik mengusha je keje. astaghfirullah....

umm rasenye mcm x menjawab soklan pulak

utk menjawab soklan kali ni i'll just say that i hv a crush with my group mate. org wales. n thats all the info y saya bole bg hehe. hopefully tahun depan we r still in the same year lol. (#'-'#)

definisi physical n personality individu terbabit adalah rahsia hehe.

David Archuleta- Crush

like the top rated comment of this video. its like the story of my life at the moment (#'-'#)

Day 12 - A photo of something that makes you happy

2011-06-28T03:45:00.000-07:00

Salam,

ramainye org nak kawen. mcm tiap tiap hari terima jemputan perkahwinan. exaggerate la tu. bukak fesbuk je, "u r invited to majlis perkahwinan si polan n si polan". bgus btol fesbuk ek. x yah nak belanja bnyk beli kad jemputan.

utk soklan kali ni saya x bole nak jwb ngan terus terang. explicit sngt. jd saya pilih option alternatif saya. a picture of a baby

comelnye!!!! lawa btol mata tu. cungkil kang. (ekspresi adalah gurauan semata mata. x pasal pasal pulak saya dituduh homicide y suka mkn mata anak org)

kdg kdg saya surf video kat youtube tgok baby baby y comel. paling suka bile tgok kembar. kan best kalo saya ada kembar.

org org y bakal kawen cuti ni, smoge dpt anak anak y comel. jaga anak tu elok elok. smoge dah besar jd anak y soleh n solehah.

p/s- bile la a new baby nak dtg kat rumah kami ni ye. saya tgah tgu dr adik perempuan saya x pun sepupu saya ni. saya lmbt lg kot nak kawen...

lagu utk baby. isnt she lovely from stevie wonder

stevie wonder- isnt she lovely

Day 11 - 5 facts about you

2011-06-26T15:32:00.000-07:00

Salam

This is such a general question. n i think i already been asked a question like this one before. link

No. 1

saya letakkan lagu reflection by christina aguilera sbgi point pertama saya.

christina aguilera- reflection

terasa macam diva mewakilkan christina aguilera utk tolg jawabkan soklan pertama >.< ahakz

No.2

Saya x minat sukan. bile org tanya, saya akan fikir panjang ape nak jwb. saya suka swimming je la. gaya bebas. tp x minat pun nak tgok acara swimmming kat olimpik. kat rumah pun x de sape y minat tgok sukan.

No.3

Saya rasa theory of evolution tu btol. sebab, cuba kita tgok. pikachu bole evolve jd raichu. agumon bole evolve jd greymon. btol la tu kan?

lol matilah kalo argument mcm tu nak dijadikan scientific evidence. tp saya memg agree with the theory. i just dont agree with the terms that they use, for example natural selection.

No.4

hobby baru saya ialah menyanyi. antara hobby hobby saya y lain ialah melukis, main flute, main clarinet, listening to music, main video games, watching youtube, tido, makan, jalan jalan especially at historical places,reading (sometimes), swimming, shopping n berangan to name a few. apa apa pun, the main point is saya x minat sukan.

No. 5

saya ni agak pemalu. cewahhh. tp btolla. agak pemalu dgan kenalan baru. or org y x rapat ngan saya. jd saya segan bila nak mintak tolg ngan org org mcm ni. nak tumpang tido rumah org pun saya segan. you can say im not really a friendly person. masalah utama ialah nak ingt nama org. im so terrible at it. ~~kalo org tu x hot, susah sket la nak ingt nama die.~~

antara masalah y lain ialah saya slalu lost contact ngan org sebab saya terlalu malas nak reply msgs. dlm sebulan saya topup henset 10 pounds je. biasenye guna henset utk bende bende penting je. nseb baek ade facebook. membantu utk keep in touch.

tp dgan org y saya dah biasa.... unleash the beast inside me!

Day 10 - A photo of the item you last purchased

2011-06-24T16:11:00.000-07:00

Salam

Sori lama menghilang. Bz berjalan sakan. pg cardiff n bordeux.

Tepat skali soklan ni sebab saya baru habes bershopping (first round) utk summer sale. dah ade beberapa plastic brg y saya beli.

saya agak malas nak amek gambo sebenarnya. ada beli scarf, t shirts, cap, topi justin timberlake, bag etc.

selain dr boxing day (26 december); summer sale juga merupakan highlight utk org org y shopaholic di uk. tp jika nak dibandingkan, boxing day ni cuma sehari manakala summer sale tu ade la beberapa minggu. so sewaktu summer sale harga brg brg turun sedikit demi sedikit.

teringt waktu boxing day. mcm berperang nak rebut baju. kedai kedai baju mcm topman, zara, hnm, next bole sesak nafas kat dlm kedai kedai tu. tp masa paling lama dihabeskan masa nak byr n nak try baju. pnjg btol queue. berlingkar lingkar queuenye.

kat uk ni org org y pg topman, zara, hnm, next tu org org y sederhana je. taraf taraf rendah la gak. kalo jln ngan burberry, louis vouitton, vivienne westwood ke baru la dianggap kaya raya. beg seciut je dah beratus ratus pounds.

hari pertama summer sale saya ada kat bordeux sbnrnye. saya temankan kawan saya shopping. tp saya ade gak beli a couple of things. walaupun dtg ke sana bawak 50 euro je, tp smngt shopping tu kene ada btol x?

tu dia merapu. x tau nak tulis ape sbnrnye sebab melagho bnyk sngt sejak akhir akhir ni. esok nak kelua lg ni. bnyk pulak baju baju cantik td. mengusha~

disebabkan entry y agak materialistik ni, mari saya sajikan dgn lagu price tag dr jesse j.

Day 9 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is

2011-06-16T17:12:00.000-07:00

Salam

sori x update for the next challenge. alasan utama ialah tu hari ada exam. dah hbes exam pun mood 'busy'nye terbawak terbawak smpi skrg. mcm inersia.

bnyk bende sbrnenye kene buat skrg ni. video utk hari ayah, beli brg sourvenir utk kawan kat malaysia, infopack pasal malaysia utk sahabat dr turkey n kononnye nak baca buku buku y dibeli dr amazon. bnyk beli buku tp satu chapter pun x pnah hbes baca.

but at the moment saya memilih utk menghiburkan hati permbaca blog saya. *krik krik krik*

sebentar td saya baru pulang dr rumah kawan. pukul 12 mlm jln sorg sorg. n then saya dgr lagu ni.

Glee- Somebody to Love (Originally from Queen)

if the video play wont play in here, please watch it in youtube. the link should be available in the video.

the night was beautiful. full moon. dim lighting. barren from drunken englishmen. n then on the way balik tibe tibe je bnyk kapel kapel jln. lepas tu saya lalu satu tmn y sngt la lawa di waktu mlm di kala bulan purnama. looking at the full moon by the side of bristol's river made me realised i was lonely.

well yes, berdsrkan discription di atas. my status is single. available, single and searching (A.S.S.). kalo buat lawak single org melayu, saya ni bapa tunggal kepada 2 org anak. anak tekak dan anak mata.

....

yes, i know its lame.

of course im longing for someone special. but im still looking for myself (the searching part). its a long journey n i dont know where it ends. im still in the middle of the road. dont know where to go. the most obvious two are very distinct from each other yet so confusing.

maybe im too naive. life is not a fairy tale. not every princess is saved by a prince. not every princess needs to be saved. not every prince rides a white horse like a knight. that is why people resorts to using online dating. but i still wish for it to come true.

at the time moment i can only wish. n hope for the right one to turn up. like natasha bedingfield in her song soulmate.

natasha bedingfield- soulmate

p/s- being single is not all that bad. bilik bersepah, kdg kdg x mandi, masak cikai cikai je, maen game 24 jam, tido smpi tgah hari, ~~solat kat akhir waktu~~. but sometimes its nice to know u hv someone special whom u can share ur life with.

Day 8- A Photo of Your Favourite Memory

2011-06-05T01:07:00.000-07:00

Salam

This week has been quite terrible

1) Kelas dah habes... I know this is an unusual response bile kelas dah habes. nak balik msia semua. tp bila kelas dah habes jd x dpt lah nak jumpa kawan kawan sekelas semua. huhu... rindu mereka. ~~sbnrnye rindu sorg je~~

2) n then suddenly my gym closes off sebab bankrupt. aghh tension. now i need to look for a new gym membership for a period of one month before im heading home. sume bende nak tutup kedai skrg ni. berderai derai ekonomi uk jatuh.

3) n next week pulak ade exam. revision x habes lg, tp pg buat bende lain dulu. contohnya? blogging...

lets get this over with then

my favourite memory so far is pegi ke genting highland dngn kwn kwn dr kyuem. saya, eirzreen, shuk, herman ngan hizbul. perancangan agak tiba tiba sbnrnye.

mcm tiba tiba duk satu meja ngan diorg waktu lunch. tibe tibe ckp, "eh, jom pg genting highland jom," saya pun dgan x malunya ckp nak join skali

hmm x silap kami pg sekitar raya cina kot. saya pun dah lupa....

hish, kain sape lah tu. pertama kali main salji (artificial) jd berasa sngt jakun.

hmpir semua rides kitorg naik. antara y menarik ialah solero shot, spiderman, 3d cinema (saya rasa nak muntah naik 3d cinema ni) n gondola cruise y ada patung bermuka paedophile. dr tgah hari smpilah ke tengah malam. pukul 2-3 pg rasenye baru balik bilik semula.

pg mane mane semua nak camwhore. mase tgah ride pun bergaya dgn meletakkan jari telunjuk di bibir so kalo gambo lawa, boleh beli. contoh seperti ni:

gambo x lawa, sebab dah nak maghrib waktu ni. cik abg y kat belakang tu sungguh spoil.

sblum dtg sini kitorg tido rumah eirzreen dulu. siapa sangka eirzreen y berpewatakan sngt moden tu dok kat dlm hutan. sumpah rase mcm kampung saya kat batu pahat. rumah dia siap ade sungai kat tepi. mlm sblum pg ke genting, kami dibawa pg ke eyes of Malaysia. disebabkan ayah eirzreen keje kat situ jd kami dpt naik free je. org lain kene byr rm15. hehe...of course la lepas tu ade sesi camwhore sbnyk mungkin. gamba lompat pun ada. gamba lompat lompat kat semua tmpt pun ada.

ni merupakan antara kenangan manis kat kyuem. technically, kat genting highland. x bnyk sngt kenangan manis saya kat kyuem ni, sebab slalu stress especially waktu uni application n exams. n then travels to and back sngt sukar. masa tulah jerawat tumbuh mcm cendawan lepas hujan.

crite pasal kawan so kene la bg lagu pasal kawan kan. setelah menyelongkar album album y ada, akhirnya saya jumpa lagu ni. such a cute song. from toy story- you've got a friend in me

Toy Story- You've Got A Friend In Me

i know, randy newman's voice is not the best voice in the world, but the song has important messages. ape pun terjadi, susah senang, walaupun ade org lain y lagi hebat, but we r all still friends xxx

bff! <3 <3 <3

Day 7- A photo of an animal you would like to keep as pet

2011-06-02T18:02:00.000-07:00

Salam Wbt.

Malas betul ek nak bg salam in full sentence. nway, 2 3 hari x buat post baru sebab laptop saya kene serang virus. nikmat sekejap x de internet, bole fikir pasal study. tp lepas tu saya godeh godeh, jd ok sket. adoii.... trus x bole study balek. confession of a webholic

sblom saya teruskan challenge ni just nak ckp y hari ni sngt panas. rase mcm kat msia gitu. i was really afraid that i would wet my armpit. n pakai kasut menyebabkan kaki saya berpeluh dan x selesa. jd saya pun beli sandal baru dr asda. on the way balik rumah lepak jap kat tmn. tgok mat saleh berjemur mcm tumbuhan atas rumput. pelik btol diorg ni. kalo kat msia, nmpk org berlatih silambam gune btg penyapu kat tgah tgah pdg, memg semua org akan toleh, tp kat sini x de sape y heran.

ok back to bisnes. favourite animals heh? walaupun soklan mintak satu, saya tetap nak bg lebih dr satu.

digimon (or pokemon. or monster rancher (what the heck is monster rancher?))

by arineu taken from rajasolarpanel.com

dont you want them? not just cute n cuddly but they also come in handy if someone robbed into ur house. a robber n a fire breathing lizard. whos gonna win? n some of them can fly as well. let say flight tickets to go back to malaysia is too expensive, then just digivolve a biyomon into birdramon (or if u prefer a pokemen version, call upon pidgeot or something). n gatomon can digivolve into a semi naked angel. n thats something! i prefer digimon over pokemon (or monster rancher. who actually watches monster rancher?) because digimon can talk n looks more brutal ~~(also because of angewomon)~~

parrot

speaking of a talking pet. here is another one. if u want a noisier house filled with comprehensible speeches (not just a meow or woof woof), this is a perfect pet for u (well, other than having more humans in ur house, but since human is not a pet so lets go with a parrot). my neighbour has a parrot n it can mimic a wide variety of noises including the sound of opening door. so the parrot always fools my neighbour thinking that someone is coming into the house. the parrot cannot fly though n lives in it's cage. talk about a boring life, no wonder the parrot talks a lot.

n look at me. im so lonely, i want a talking pet. oh syafiq...

n before im announcing the final animal of today. here is the intro video of the animal:

Baha Man- Who let the dogs out

Dog

a dog? najis mughalazh man... not cool

hey, this is a theoretical question. i can put a pig if i want to.

i like small dogs with thick fluffy fur and short limbs because its funny to see them strolling along side their owner. pernah skali tu saya nmpk sepasang anjing y bulunya tebal mcm chewbacca. his fur is so thick, his legs and eyes are hidden. saya panggil die anjing baka mop lantai. sebab bile dia jln, daun daun kering melekat kat bulu die mcm mop lantai. it literally looks like a moving rug. cumell sngt!!!

fact of the day- do u know that all dogs are in the same species. they look very different from each other but they are in the same species.

Day 6- A song to match your mood

2011-05-30T12:23:00.000-07:00

Salam

my mood like... now?

i guess to answer this question i need to describe my mood first.

im rather lonely at the moment, n thus the associated feelings: bored, sad, depressed, lazy, discouraged....

i guess im never a friendly person. n also very quiet. so i dont normally draw people around me.

i dont know why im so bad at meeting new people. n keeping the existing friendship. i guess i would rather be in my own world. selfish really

i take years to reply messages on facebook. dont usually answer skype calls. take forever to reply sms. n sometimes (or often, depends who sends the messages really), just abandon the messages until i am further re-noticed.

yeah i dont know. why i keep building up this barrier around me so that no one knows me. why i will always divert conversations into something that is NOT about my personal feelings. why i dont want people to understand me. n i guess its not excessive to say that no one really knows me, even my parents.

because i made them so

so there u go. a pretty emo entry. i guess this is the spilled over effect from the movie brokeback mountain which has not subsided yet. that is one very strong movie. i just hope i will not end up alone like the protagonist in the movie. or like celine dion in her song all by myself

Celine Dion- All by myself

before this song was sung by celine dion, it was sung by a dude actually. his name is eric carmen. i always thought this song is a feminine song.

Day 5- What makes you different than everyone else

2011-05-28T18:10:00.000-07:00

Salam

saya baru je tgok cerita brokeback mountain. crite tu kelua tahun 2005, tp saya baru je tgok semlm. sngt ketinggalan zaman. uh sngt depressing la cerita tu. ending die memg saya x bole terima. dah la lepas tu saya check y pelakon utama die, heath ledger baru meninggal tahun 2008. lg lah bertmbh depress. cubaan menceriakan diri dgan menonton cerita happy tree friends lepas tu tidak berjaya sama skali.

nway, lets move on (smbil menangis sayup sayup). i'll just list up what i think makes me unique

1) left handed. 10-20% of population is left handed. that is an overwhelming minority i supposed

*interesting fact- a lot of machines, devices and appliances we use today discriminate towards the left handies. for examples, can openers, doors, most musical intruments, cars, scissors, writing from left to right, most gym facilities, computer mouses, serrated knives, watches, cameras, peelers, buttons, irons, graters and so on. that is because most appliances are made for right handed people. haha bukanlah nak merungut ke ape, tp i think it is quite interesting. i actually never noticed this before. bende bende mcm can opener and mouse tu perasan la masa first time guna

2) im nocturnal. n lately this has been quite annoying to me. susah nak kelua bejln waktu siang sebab waktu siang slalu ngantuk n malam pulak segar bugar. dah deprive sleep mlm n siang tp bila smpi waktu mlm tetap segar gak. malam x de bende nak buat, so bosan gile. maybe i should go see a doctor for this

3) hobby melukis. ramai org kata jrg ada org suka melukis.

4) saya x brape suka bola sepak (n most kind of sports) unlike most boys. bukanlah x suke sbnrnye ('x suke' is such a strong word), but is not something that i enjoy. like i dont totally care barca or mu lawan smlm. i know about the tournament because it was everywhere on facebook

5) i suspect that i might hv adhd (attention deficit and hyperactive). well the hyperactive part is long gone now. mak saya kata waktu kecik kecik dulu saya memg hyperaktif. bile fikir balik mcm betul gak. teringt mama kejar saya keliling rumah waktu kecik kecik. waktu bulan puasa pun saya boleh maen lompat getah kat luar rumah sepanjang hari. n then ade skali saya lari dr supermarket balik rumah jln kaki selama 9 jam. pernah beberapa kali jugak lari dr rumah. tu semua trjadi mase saya sekolah rendah. masuk skolah menengah mcm dah senyap sket.

tp attention deficit tu mungkin ade lg la kot. arguably maybe semua org memg x bole nak pay attention to lectures. tp saya kdg kdg bile berbual ngan org pun saya bole berfikir pasal bende lain. n bile dgr lectures memg susah nak concentrate. maybe partly sebab saya left handed. the way left and right handed people berfikir n kumpul maklumat is different. most schools and educations syllabuses are arranged for right handy's kind of learning, so that might partially explain why i tend to daydream at class.

there are a couple more points about me but im too depressed to write now.

i might be sleepy on the day, i might fall asleep while watching a football tournament, i might hv problem paying attention to what people r saying n i might hv problem using a can opener but that is the way i am. bak kata staind dlm lagunye the way i am.

Staind- The Way I Am

however, contradictory to this song, please do tell me if im wrong or anything. we r all not perfect but we r striving to be better than we previously are

day 4- your favourite photograph of ur best friends

2011-05-27T13:09:00.000-07:00

salam,

woah its friday already *pasang lagu friday drpd rebecca black*

hmm bnyk sngt kawan ni. x tau mane y nak pilih. rasenye ni kot y terbaik

saya suka gamba ni sebab afiq dok sebelah adek die, akmal pndg belakang n hazmil dgan amaknya menyonyot gula gula. just kidding. haha lawak adek adek. x hbes hbes smpi skrg.

ni adelah ahli ahli pancaragam batch saya (army of sly, aox). kami berbaju warna warni ni nak pg mandi kat air terjun kota tinggi. gambar ni mcm ala ala candid kan. sume mcm x ready. saya je y ready, tersenyum smpi ke telinga dgn tuala di bahu.

gmbr kat atas ni merupakan satu satunya gmbr y cukup semua ahli band aox y saya ade. family portrait katanya. mereka semua ni satu keluarga, saya je y x. hehe

y ni pulak gmbr waktu kitorg form 3, baru lepas competition. sepnjg form 3 ke form 5 tu ada beberapa ahli y kelua dan y masuk sbnrnye.

tgok baju kitorg tu. menyerlah kan? kalah lady gaga. seakan seakan smgt patriotik, cukup 4 kaler bendera malaysia. x phm saya mcm mana stf boleh menang kostum terbaik. kostum kitorg lg best kot.

memg bestla jd bdak band. the sweetest memory of my high school. zmn college pun mcm lagi dull drpd high school. seriusly, kyuem tu ape ade? drama budak budak band memg x boleh nak ckp la. kalah glee rasenye. menangis nangis kdg kdg berdrama tu. smpi ade y kene keluar band. owh drama...rindu sngt kat diorg ni. tp masing masing bz bukan maen. kalau nak buat reunion memg payah y teramat.

x tau nak letak lagu ape. nak letak lagu graduation song drpd vitamin c mcm x brape kene sngt. oleh itu saya letak lagu wind orchestra sbp y kami maen pd tahun 2006.

courtesy from makmalw.

wow, it actually sounds quite bad... not sure mcm mane bole dpt perak ni ye. n part y last tu (dolce- swing- ntah ape lagi satu ni), kitorg practice satu hari je, lepas dpt tau y kitorg maen salah tempo selama ni. mantap jugak boleh maen terus waktu competition. part 2 boleh carik kat youtube ye

Day 3- Your idea of a perfect date

2011-05-26T08:44:00.000-07:00

Salam

First of all, yay! I mean Alhamdulillah.

Just got my neuro exam result. passed it although just marginally. That is what u get for travelling to turkey for 12 days. the worst exam result since i failed my ethics paper. on the bright side, i dont hv to resit though. so, still praise to The Almighty God

so im in a good mood n if possible i dont want to get to bed before i get to go gym today, so lets continue blogging

perfect date?

dating is not a familiar realm for me in the first place. never hv any before n proud of it. lol.

i dont know. sometimes when we plan something to specific details n if it does not go as planned, it will be a huge disappointment. but im not saying i dont hv my own dream date though.

well i think the most important thing is the essence of dating. communication. its the best time to get to know his or her personalities, interests, backgrounds etc. i would like the conversation to be as deep as possible. touching emotion bits. hmm... well, a romantic environment would help. u know, dim lighting, italian food, nice clean environment, beautiful night and romantic songs. like this one

bella notte from the movie lady and tramp

how cute. n then hv the singer plays accordion or violin at the side of the table. n try a few french words just to be more romantic like vous etes belle aujourd'hui. ahhh.... that is a bit over isnt it?

dating i believe is haram in between unmarried couple. so that is the end of it. of course u can practice it with ur spouse.

its such a difficult question to answer but i hope u guys see my point

Day 2- Your favourite movie

2011-05-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

Salam

Ok cabaran kedua. Hmm favourite movie. I dont always watch movies, so pardon me if my choices are rather lame

saya pernah ditujukan soklan ni skali waktu interprofessional seminar. waktu tu saya jwb step up 3. now that i think of it again, it is a fun movie, but not deep enough.

so, here go the lists:

the curious case of benjamin button

saya pernah tgok crite ni skali je sbnrnye. cried a few times mase tgok movie ni. im a bit sentimental actually. mengisahkan tentang benjamin, y dilahirkan tua dan menjadi semakin muda as he grows. dia dibesarkan di rumah org tua tua (org org tua?) oleh keluarga angkat die stelah bapak die tinggalkan die kat tangga rumah org. sewaktu die dok kat situ, die ingt die x akan hidup lama sebab die tgok die sama je mcm org tua y lain n org tua lain bnyk y meninggal dunia. kat situ jgak die jugak bertemu dgn sorg budak bernama daisy. they are the same age, tp benjamin ni nmpk mcm org tua. as he grew older (physically he grew younger), die pun mula merantau. n then ditakdirkan y die bertemu semula dgn daisy. they fell in love and eventually had a baby. tp memikirkan kesulitan y akan dihadapi oleh daisy jika mereka hidup bersama menyebabkan benjamin meninggalkan daisy. pnjglah kalau nak cerita semua, tp akhirnya benjamin meninggal dalam dakapan daisy in a form of a baby. such a sad story.

kuch kuch hota hai

haha we need a lil bit of diversity dont we. watched this when i was in primary school. i was 10 maybe? evergreen katanya. cerita dimulakan dngn kisah high school, a love triangle between rajul (shah rukh khan), tina (ranee mukerjee) and anjali (kajol). anjali merupakan kawan baik rajul so its not surprising that rajul didnt notice anjali's affection to him. rajul dan tina kemudian jatuh cinta menyebabkan anjali patah hati. anjali then moved away. nak dipendekkan cerita, rajul n tina kahwin lepas tu dan menerima seorg cahaya mata. tp tina meninggal dunia sebab accident. dan ditakdirkan lagi, rajul bertemu semula dngn anjali, n cinta berputik lagi. ape y lbey menarik dngn filem ni ialah koleksi lagu lagu diorg y sngt best! oleh it utk post kali ni, mari saya sajikan dngn lagu tema kuch kuch hota hai y bertajuk kuch kuch hota hai y bermaksud ???

Kuch kuch hota hai

cerianya baju y diorg pakai. lepas ni nak beli baju y kaler terang terang la. depress bile tgok almari sendiri. semua kaler hitam

Masalah ekonomi semasa

2011-05-24T18:38:00.000-07:00

Salam. hmm dah lama x bukak entry dgn kalimah y sngt disarankan dlm Islam ni. Sunat kan bg salam. InsyaAllah ada ganjarannya.

nway, i want to skip my playtime essay. the 30 days challenge. its interesting, but i just cannot find time to do it everyday consecutively. we will hv it later ok?

i watched a video from youtube long time ago about uk economical debt. its growing to billions by now. the same pattern can be seen all across the globe. most countries are having the same problem, including malaysia.

apparently the main cause is government failure to manage national's money. this is not specifically referring to malicious acts in handling national's properties like bribery etc. in Western countries, corruptions like those do not normally happen. the problem is more associated with government reckless spending to attract polls during elections. u see, to attract more voters, participating political parties offer a lot of sweet plans to civilians. more sweet plans meaning more expenditure if the political party is elected as the new government. if plans are not met, this could lead to losing in the next election.

expenditure is not a problem if there is enough revenue. for example if we hv enough money, we dont hv problems going to shopping mall actively(for actual shopping not just window shopping). but if we dont hv enough money, in some extreme we might resort to borrowing money. government however hv more than just that option. yes, they can borrow money, but usually it will be highly regulated, involving difficult procedures and not to mention an embarassing act. or another option, they can print more money. pretty clever eh?

not!

money as we hv now actually is no more than just a 'made up' valued paper. it is essentially just a paper (or piece of nickel or something). other than the size, a 100 ringgit note is not different at all than a 1 ringgit note. and it is used only as a medium for exchanges of good and services. as more money is circulating around in market, the value of money decreases. i mean, if sand in the beach is considered as money, do u think u will be able to trade it around with something more valuable like for say.... ferrari? 500 000 grains of sand and u get a ferrari. no right? because when something is plenty, it becomes less valuable. why would u trade something that is more valuable to a less valuable stuff? the same goes with money, as it rises in quantity, it falls in value.

that is why we see, prices of goods keep rising up lately. more money is needed to buy the same thing. rise in price or in other word, cost of living if coupled with rise of income, would not be a big problem. but if cost of living increases but income stays the same, people will soon realise they cannot afford the same thing that they previously could. this can ultimately lead to a situation where people dont 'trust' in money anymore n they resolve to other methods of trading such as barter. when a currency fails to function, it will just collapse the whole country's economy down.

to resolve this problem, government needs to be more careful in expending national resources. n that means political parties need to be careful in presenting their manifestos. n that means civilians need to be less demanding. n that means current government needs to educate civilians to behave that way. see? its a circulating problem but intervention is really difficult. and as we can see, the problem is spiraling up now and it becomes more serious as it goes.

-just a reminder, sacrifice is looked up highly by Allah. and if we, a normal civilian can be more patient with the tests on the world, not only it helps solving parts of the (current economic) problem, but the reward hereafter is insyaAllah, enormous.

now, music time! Ka-ching by Shania Twain!

hehe im planning to make my blog becomes glee-like. u know, u can learn something from songs actually.

Day 1- Your favourite song

2011-05-21T13:38:00.000-07:00

Hmm im pretty sure favourite is spelled as F-A-V-O-U-R-I-T-E. i think americans spell it as favorite

nway, bole x nak jwab lbeh dari satu lagu? mcm bimbo gitu kan org tanye satu, die nak jawab bnyk. ahh it doesnt matter, i ask the question and i am the one who is answering it, u guys can only read it.

saya ada bnyk lagu y saya suka. bile lagu tu jd hits je, saya terus suka. tp saya tapis tapis jugak la. lagu judas lady gaga tu contohnya, saya tolak tepi. mcm sngt kafir rasenye lagu tu

nway, saya pilih beberapa y terbaik la utk jwb soklan ni:

defying gravity by chris colfer

pd mulanya saya suka lagu ni sebab suara chris y agak soothing. n then saya tertarik pulak dgan seni kata die. lagu ni pd asalnya dinyanyikan dlm wicked, n diedit dlm cerita glee. it is a song about someone who is tired of being kept down by people around him, so he decided it is time to 'defy gravity'. ni mcm lagu encouragement la, if u think no one around u would support u with whatever u r doing, just ignore them n believe with ur own capability. u never know if u never try ye x? of course la jgn lupa berdoa ye....

no air by jordin sparks and chris brown

ok i dont agree with what chris brown did to rihanna but let put that aside shall we? the main point is this song kicks ...... saya teringin sngt nak berduet lagu ni ngan sape sape la. x kisah laki pun pompuan. saya versatile ok, bole nyanyi part jordin n chris. ok, part y jordin menjerit dgan nyaringnye tu mungkin saya fail sket la. anyway, this song is about a couple who are deeply in love. without one or another, they feel like they are drowning, living in a world with no air. hah cam gitu die punye metafora die.

teman sejati by brothers?

kita kene masukkan lagu nasyid jugak dlm list. kene buat pengisian rohani jugak gitu. lagu ni sebenarnya mengimbau kisah persahabatan saya dgn sorg sahabat baik saya mase kat skolah rendah dulu. mase tu, kitorg ni mcm belangkas (btol ke?). pg mane mane pun bersama. tp, kami berpisah sebab saya dipengaruhi dngn digimon swaktu darjah 5 sob sob. ceh, x de lah gaduh ke ape, cuma kitorg x rapat mcm dulu la. kami ok ok je skrg. nak dikisahkan, x ingt ade hari kantin bila, lagu ni didendangkan di radio. kebetulan waktu tu die berdiri sebelah saya. n then suddenly die ckp "oh syahdunye dgr lagu ni". rasa sngt tragis skali saat tu. tp saya berdiam diri dan berlalu pergi. gawd, i was such a hypocrite!!!

dgan itu saya dedikasikan lagu ni utk sahabat lama saya mohd razi bin yahsin. (ohhh, i really hope i spelled his name right...im such a terrible friend)

n speaking of dedikasi lagu, i want to dedicate this song to my mom. sung by robbie williams entitled angels. and played by me ;)

30 days challenge

2011-05-18T17:59:00.000-07:00

saya jumpa ni dari page adik saya. mcm best je, jd saya pun nak nak maen gak. mcm x de keje sngt kan nak tulis blog tiap tiap hari. teringt mase mula mula buat blog dulu. bukan maen tiap tiap hari update.

well anyway i just like answering personal questions. it helps expressing myself especially in subjects where people dont usually ask. a hidden part of me gittew. plus, it trains me to face paparazzi in the future. cam gitu statement.

so, below is the list of questions that i need to answer daily in the next 30 days. ohh bile ckp pasal questions ni tibe tibe teringat pasal exam plak kan. x pe kite berpura pura mcm exam tu lame lg bole x?

The 30 Days Challenge

Day 1 - Your favorite song

Day 2 - Your favorite movie

Day 3 - Your idea of the perfect first date

Day 4 - Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Day 5 - What makes you different from everyone else?

Day 6 - A song to match your mood

Day 7 - A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet

Day 8 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 9 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is

Day 10 - A photo of the item you last purchased

Day 11 - 5 facts about you

Day 12 - A photo of something that makes you happy

Day 13 - What kind of person attracts you?

Day 14 - Who are you?

Day 15 - A TV show you’re currently addicted to

Day 16 - Something you don’t leave the house without

Day 17 - How you hope your future will be like

Day 18 - 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex

Day 19 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 20 - The meaning behind your blog name

Day 21 - A photo of your favorite place to eat

Day 22 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 23 - Your dream wedding

Day 24 - A photo of something that means a lot to you

Day 25 - Short term goals for this month and why

Day 26 - A photo of somewhere you want to go

Day 27 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 28 - In this past month, what have you learned?

Day 29 - Something you could never get tired of doing

Day 30 - A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 day

hopefully by the end of this, i can know myself better :)

Nak tambah berat badan!!!!

2011-05-18T16:09:00.000-07:00

Im in a mission of adding more weight. such an irony, in a world where people are racing to lose weight, im going the other way around.

i have been going to gym for about 6 months now. to be honest, i dont really see much different. i only managed to put on 5 kilograms (wow, now i just realised how pathetic my effort was).

the problem rooted down to the fact that my body burns down calorie really fast making it less effective in putting up weight. thus, i created a solution by eating more. everyday i try to eat at least 2 times. lunch and dinner, or whenever it is for me to eat. i dont have a fixed sleep time like most people do. sometimes i have my dinner at 12 at night. yeah, i think i might have narcolepsy.

n i also try adding up more food on my plate. before this, i only eat one cup of rice. now its up to one and quarter cup of rice. i also have at least 2 rich protein source food on my plate; usually chicken and omelette. i know it doesnt sound really impressive, but apparently it is enough to escalate the numbers on the scale. in fact, i think i might have got a tummy now :P not only that, i'll try to fulfill my desire for food if im craving for something. but it is not easy job to do since most of the time, i dont really hv much in my kitchen.

eating excessively is not as easy as it sound. sometimes i feel like to vomit when i stuffed to much food into my throat (plus if on that day my cooking tastes horrid, that is just unbearable...), but i take my time, sometimes up to 1 hour just to clean up my plate.

yesterday, i found a software that can help in planning for nutritional management for bodybuilders. obviously bodybuilding is not my aim, but the prospect of getting lean muscle is irresistible. at 1.65 m and 55kg, im pretty much just bones. im actually lighter than my mum and dad. anyway, the software however is really expensive, and it does not get enough review yet. there are also a lot of problems with the software at the moment, so im not betting my money on that software anytime soon. for now im sticking with my 1 and 1/4 cup of rice diet.

there are side effects of eating too much without any precaution steps. although my body is good in burning down calories, but in time of too much calories, it will eventually turn into fat. and that is not good. plus, with my malaysian food diet now, im pretty much adding the risk of getting high blood pressure (not to count that i might have the gene for it). however, this can insyaAllah be countered back with frequent visit to gym (or play kinect for 1 one hour, swear to God, it is a really physically demanding video game)

fact of the day: obese is not an option. most obese people lack or are not responsive to hormone that control satiety, thus cannot turn off their appetite. however, that is not a reason to just sit around and not doing exercise, go outside and do something physically challenging that you enjoy. you can take down the effect of the gene!!

Isu gay, homosexual and transgender

2011-05-14T17:30:00.001-07:00

First of all, saya rasa sngt segan nak tulis kat blog sebab dah lama giler x tulis. hoho smpi ade org komen bile nak update (rase hot sekejap)

n tibe tibe update pasal gay n homosexual. no no this is not about kes liwat anwar ibrahim y x settle settle lagi tu. x tau la mane diorg nak gali bukti lagi dlm cubaan nak 'membenarkan' kes tu. x tau ke memfitnah org berzina tu kalau mengikut Islam kene sebat 80 kali?

nway, i really like glee and lately there are so many gay issues are brought up by that series. n interestingly im in my endorepro week (endocrine + reproduction system), so this topic were touched a little bit.

the lecturer didnt specifically touched on the gay issues though. gay is widely acceptable in uk so there is no need to address the issue in lectures. however, we had a couple of lectures showing gender dysphoria; meaning people think they were born in wrong bodies.

virilisation of the genitalia in fetus is due to hormonal control. testosterone is responsible for the development of male internal genitalia tract while dihydrotestosterone is responsible for the formation of male external genitalia. in some occasions though, mutations may occur and the process of genitalia formation does not end up perfectly. for example if there is a defect in dihydrotestosterone, the person will end up having internal male genitalia but external female genitalia. she will most like be brought up us a girl although deep inside she is a boy (containing xy chromosome). im not entirely sure but i think after puberty, with her xy chromosome, she will develop male secondary growth characteristics and this will bring conflicting personality to her. plus anatomically, she will also look different than both genders which can lead to social discrimination.

the case above is not really a gender dysphoria. from what i looked up in wikipedia, gender dysphoria is more likely to be related to psychology rather than anatomy. people with gender dysphoria strongly believe that they are "born in wrong body". im not sure if gender dysphoria is categorised under psychiatric disorder (since gay is no longer considered as psychiatric disorder) but people already develop the feeling since they are children as young as 5. there are conflicting results in neglecting the feeling. some are able to grow up normally while some others have recurrent feeling. the problem with getting the feeling back is it can disturb someone's life really badly; leading to discrimination, depression, personality confusion and suicide.

prevalence of gender dysphoria are getting higher because people are more tolerance towards this issue. however, these all bring up ethical issues especially in gender dysphoria among children. treatment for gender dysphoria in children usually is by giving them hormones that can change their secondary sex growth to the other gender. however, children are often regarded as non competent (not able to make their own decisions) by ethicist. that means children is not capable enough of making a wise decision on their own, and parents are usually the one who can decide what is the best for their child. and now this is where it all becomes interesting. do the parents know what is the best for their children? is the children sure enough to lead the other gender lifestyle? what if one day he/she might regret it? once it is done, it cannot be undone. well, technically it can with the technologies at the moment but it will be really expensive and difficult.

gay and homosexual were once considered as a psychiatric disorder. however, things have change now. it is now believed that sexual orientation is genetic like skin colour. in a monozygotic twin, if one of them is gay the probability that the other is gay is very high, suggessting genetic influence in it. from a video that i watched on youtube (amek kau sumber rujukan, x konkrit langsung), it seems that birth order also can influence sexual orientation. the more older brothers that a guy has, the more likely he is going to be gay. research has shown that as a woman keeps having boys in pregnancy, her body will adapt in feminising the fetus. however, opposition theorises that this can be explained by the fact that the youngest child always get attention from the mother, making them 'soft'; as what is commonly seen in gay people.

gay people do exist in every ethnics and races in the world. they come in different flavours. not just the slutty, tight pink shirt streotype that we imagine gay men look like. there are gay men who like to play football, rugby or some other bone breaking games that some straight men never play. and there are gay muslims apparently, and their movements have been more vigorous in uk. however, most oppositions towards gay come from christian community as gay movements are more prevalence in the west, which historically was dominated by christian. one of the arguments bombarded to defy homosexual practice is it is unnatural. this question needs to be redefined more clearly because 'unnatural' suggests using other animals as example. if we look at other animals, homosexual practices are actually more common than heterosexual practice. why homosexual practices exist is not entirely understood since it does not lead to genetic succession.

Allah mentions in Al Quran about punishments to the people of Lot for their transgression towards the angels that were sent down to Earth. The transgression is believed to be an action of homosexual rape rather than just plain gay (no pun intended). However, I vividly remember another sentence saying something like Allah has created woman, so why must seek men? Basically, from this sentence, we can clearly draw that homosexual act is wrong by the side of Islam

now we come to a conclusion in which gay is something natural that comes within oneself but the practice is wrong. how can people like this live their life then? both are real elements (sexuality and religion) within themselves that they cannot object but come conflicting with each other. should we blame the environment? like obese people who were born with obese genes aand live in the environment that promotes obesity. if look at the world though, everything is genetic. even alcoholic has some genetic element in it. however, what turns on the genes depends on the environment. without any stimulation from environment, chance for the gene to turn on is quite slim. another problem is, obese people seeks help to reduce weight, but most homosexuals want to live their lives as it is. so, should they ignore their religions and live a lifestyle without spiritual element in it? or should they just stay living in a closet, marry a woman and live an unhappy life? i believe both elements are important for a happy life on Earth, but it seems so contradictory.

some theorise that being gay is a test given by The God. by being patient with it, they will be rewarded more by The God. I wonder what u guys think. can someone be religious and gay at the same time?

a picture of a pregnant cat (or obese cat? im not sure...). totally random

defying gravity clarinet glee cover

2011-03-25T13:08:00.000-07:00

politik kotor

2011-03-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

teringat: masa cuti summer tu hari, balik rumah bukak tv3 tgok berita. laporan drpd tv3. penduduk penang merungut masalah tol semenjak tukar kerajaan negeri. tiap tiap hari pun cerita sama. complain pasal kerajaan negeri y bukan BN.

kalo bace arus utama media akhbar tempatan, gosip gosip pasal ahli ahli politik ni lg sensasi dr gosip gosip artis. kalo nak bace gosip gosip artis bukak majalah manga je la kan. kisah liwat, video seks and adultery. sume ade dlm akhbar tempatan. n then, kat skolah skolah edarkan akhbar akhbar ni kat budak budak.

kalo tgok kat negara negara lain, org nak judge ahli politik berdasarkan manifesto n ape perubahan y diorg buat pd negara. kat Msia, ade elemen lain y di masukkan skali. fitnah.

agghh. rase geli btol ngan pemimpin politik y x snonoh mcm ni la. mcm ni ke nak jd pemimpin? tabur fitnah mcm tabur garam dlm masakan je. dah la majoritinya muslim. dosa fitnah tu sama mcm makin daging saudara sendiri tau x. mengumpat pun lg teruk dr zina, fitnah apatah lagi?

marilah sama sama bawa arus perubahan dalam negara

La clase de español

2011-03-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

*warning* full usage of foreign language. navigate away if u dont understand spanish

hoy es la clase ultima por español. estoy triste porque no voy a aprender español nunca mas este anõs. me gusta la clase de español! la profesora es muy bonita y mis amigos estaís alegro siempre.

he aprendido mucho en la clase. mi español es no bien pero por lo menos puedo llamar mi nombre en una frase completa ;P

hamos aprendido mucho sobre los dialogos entre el medico y la paciente. tambien, hamos aprendido sobre los verbos pasado, los verbos futuro y actividades todos los dias.

con el español basico, puedo usar el lenguas si visito al español. todavio no he ido al español. muchos mis amigos haís viajado al español. decís español es una bonita país. quiero ir al español ver el país yo mismo.

ahora, podemos ir a la clinica y tener una conversacion con el medico. tambien, podemos ser el medico y preguntar paciente de español sobre sus sintomas. pero, hablaís muy rapído y no podemos comprender.

voy a extrañar la clase de español. he una idioma interesente. si tengo la oportunidad, quiero continuar estudio de español. si no hago practicar la idioma que he aprendido, voy a olvidar la idioma. ojalá tengo el tiempo aprender español en el futuro.

gracias la profesora!

cantar y bailar!

Our perception about the world

2011-03-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

im learning nervous system at the moment, which is a very interesting subject. a few days ago, i was thinking that i might be good at being a surgeon. i mean, i hv relatively good hands dexterity. been training my hands for years with my drawing, playing intruments n sewing skills. plus, im a little rubbish in language side (language centre of the brain is located at the left side of the brain; a left handed people like me has less developed left hemisphere brain, hence comparatively weaker ability in language profeciency). i admit that n when i want to say a long sentence, i usually will construct the sentence in my brain but upon saying it out loud, it still comes out unorganised. english or malay, both the same.

nway, why do we feel pain? how do we conceive image, sound, taste n temperature? from what i learned, it is all still pointing towards the brain. our brain has been agreed upon by many scientists as the best processors in the world. why though?

take example of the human eyes. the eyes sense visible spectrum of electromagnetic waves reflected by matters. the stimulus for the eyes is a small portion of electromagnetic wave, exciting our retina and then is sent the to the brain. it is amazing how our brain then projected the electromagnetic wave into images complete with colour. i mean, isnt it amazing. in the physical world, our vision basically is just electromagnetic wave. the brain interpretes it as images and colours making life more beautiful and interesting.

ours eyes sense electromagnetic wave (picture on left) and the brain transmit the information into image like the picture on the right

lets consider hearing now. the hearing part of the ear, senses changes of air compression which is transmitted as wave. then the brain interprets this wave message as sound, something that we enjoy really much. if u go into microscopic aspect of the ear, u can see the stimulus for hearing part of our ear is actually just some mechanical actions due to the air compression. n this in turn becomes sound. isnt it just amazing and weird at the same time.

in a physical world, this is basically what sound is.

my lecturer said that there is no such thing as pain in the physical world. we can feel pain because the brain says so. pain is important so that we can response and avoid stimulus that is potentially hazardous to us. a needle pierces to ur feet is just a mechanical damage to tissues of our feet, but why it is so painful?

temperature is just particles moving randomly and hitting each other at different velocity. increase in temperature means that particles are moving faster. but still we can perceive temperature as hot and cold while what happen is just the basic principles of particles hitting and sensitised our temperature receptors at different frequency at different temperature. particles still move and hit each other at 0 degree Celcius (albeit more slowly than they do at 100 degree) but why it is unbearably cold for us?

brain is an interesting thing that shapes the world as we see. all our decision making abilities take part in that organ which literally is the size of both ur knuckles combined together. sensory inputs like sight, sound, n memory interact with each other in the brain before the final decision is sent to particular organs to react appropriately to the sensory inputs. think about u seeing someone u recognise on a street n then u r flipping whether u want to appraoch him or avoid him. all inputs from ur memory n experience will be weighted in the brain before the brain send information to the legs deciding ur final action. the longer time u take to decide, the more inputs are considered.

the brain, organ that shapes our perception to the world. the brain can play trick to us ;)

going microscopically, the brain consists of neurones; cells that are specialised in sensing and delivering information all over our body. its a bit like wiring that begins with organs specialise in sensing physical stimuli and terminates into muscle and effector organs that will response to the changes of physical stimuli. this process is important to create optimal environment for our cells to work and stay alive.

even time is arguably created by the brain. there is an abnormality of the brain in which the brain cannot save any new information to create new memory, i cant remember what the disease is called. people with this disease is stuck in one moment of their life. they cannot perceive time because they cant save any events and experiences in the brain as memory. its like playing a videogame with no memory card n u r doomed to repeat the same event each time u play the game.

how do the brain manages to convey image, sound, hot, cold, pain, taste and smell from simple physical stimuli is still a mystery. this is a part of human, called conciousness which remains eluded in science up until today. human is not the only organism on the Earth that possesses consciousness. if im not mistaken, dogs, elephants and dolphins also hv consiousness tested from self mirror image experiment.

which then reminds me from something that i watched on youtube. search for the history of God (i think). basically it is a documentary about human understanding about the basic principle of God in major religions of the world. in the documentary there is a part about ancient belief among prehistoric people that lived in caves. these prehistoric people made wall painting using coloured substances by tracing their hands on the wall of the cave. paleontologists (or historians or whoever) believes that these painting symbolised attempts to reconnect with The God. these ancient people believed that everything in this world can communicate with The God including the stones, trees etc. (sounds familiar?) and they believed that conciousness of the world has blocked the communication and connection with The God. this is a bit like the story of Adam and Eve, in which after they ate the forbidden fruit and received Allah's wrath, they became conscious with the world around them . they became aware of their naked body and tried to cover them with bushes. (not sure where exactly this story is taken from; Al-Quran or bible...)

hand painting- lupe plak dr gua mana ni

latest scientific researches about the true nature of the world are becoming more and more confusing. we believe that all matters in the world is formed by atoms. the construction of atom structure has long been an interest to scientists. currently, scientists believe that atom is not like spherical ball that we had always imagined. quantum mechanics has shown the very conflicting nature of the subatomic world. the structure of atom cannot be comprehended by our imagination. it can only be translated into mathematical equation in terms of probablity. so now, science has becomes even more confusing by pointing that the building block that creates all of us is just some kinf of probability. that is how real our world is: built of ground by probability and uncertainty. perhaps, the saying that the world is not real is true after all as proven by modern science.

basic atom structure like we learned (not to scale). to say atom really looks like this is not accurate enough.

reality and fantasy is not that distinct anymore. can u really believe what u see with ur eyes? it could be a trick by the brain

Humanity

2011-03-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

i guess everyone should already know about the tragedy happening in japan right now. my pray goes with them wishing may The God eases them in their suffering. its hard to imagine what they r going thru n i wouldnt dare to say i understand how they feel, for me i've never experience any kind of suffering that terrible.

even in this kind of situation, where people is in suffering, some people still put themselves ahead. i read on a newspaper today about a scam for donation to japan on internet. its a new way of phishing lately. how cruel can people be, taking advantages on other people's suffering. that is harsh. to just think about it, i dont think i hv enough forgiveness to give them eventhough they might repent afterward.

n some people still able to make joke about what happened to japan. the image that berita harian put on their paper is just unacceptable, whatever their reason is. it is just plain rude and immoral. i dont even want to show the picture on my blog. i can only say 'padan muka' when the story appeared on cnn. humiliating huh? i hope u learnt something from that.

n apparently, our 'first lady' also made a personal comment about the tragedy that is happening on japan.

at first i sort of agreed with her, but then on a second thought i was like, seriously? how green should u be to stay away from a natural disaster? live on a tree with animals n then u r sured to be 100% safe from any sort of disaster? n fyi, japan is quite well adapted to earthquake. they get earthquake almost every week, it is just not as disastrous as the one that just happened 3 days ago. some things cannot be predicted n Allah is the best decision maker of all. u should at least say ur sympathy to the situation before making any nonsense comment. she probably did, but the tv crew just dont want to show it. i dont want to make any negative assumption

yes, we should learn something from what is happening to japan right now. but to make a greener development sits at the bottom of the list. what we should take lesson from is how the japanese react to this event. one of my friend posted on his fb on how the japanese help each other when obviously everyone is in need of help. grocery stores drop down prices so people can afford to buy essential goods, vending machine gives out free drinks and food, people give out warm pads for people that they dont even know, young girls helping to deliver and distribute foods to families in need. that sort of thing that we need to learn.even in a considerably chaotic situation at the moment, the japanese still manage not to loot and steal from each others. in contrast to what i heard happening in malaysia, where a lorry bringing rice had an accident and rice flooded the highway and people racing to loot the rice. im so ashamed with this kind of behaviour. "oh, screw the lorry driver, im hungry, lets get the rice on the road". what? r u too poor to afford ur own staple food? possibly. i heard that prices of goods are still rising in malaysia. wonder what the government is doing

n if there were any muslims looted the rice on the road as well, i can only say, stealing is a sin. n then again, do muslims in our country actually know how severe punishment for stealing is in Islam? i blame it on the education system which again pointing towards our current goverment.

its really easy isnt it to just point and blame people around. i was taken to a status posted by one of my friend on fb (who says fb is a waste of time?)

"should i blame the people? but then again, its the goverment that teach the people to behave in that sort of behaviour. should i blame the goverment then? but it is the people actually who chooses their own leader. maybe i should blame myself, because i am too weak to perform da'wah sufficiently"

Tragedi basuh baju

2011-03-03T12:21:00.000-08:00

Ah penat penat

Mesin basuh rumah saya ni dah dua minggu rosak. dah x de stokin dah nak dipakai. kitar semula je stokin stokin lama y seriously bole muntah bile bau. tp semalam mcm perasan y mesin basuh tu ok. jd saya try basuh baju dlm mesih basuh tu hari ni.

sebagai langkah precaution, saya pun test dulu mesin basuh tu sebelum basuh. oh bole on. bile tekan start air pun masuk dlm drum. okla tu kan. tanpa berfikir pnjg, saya pun masukkan baju dlm mesin basuh tu. n then sementara tgah tgu baju tu dibasuh saya pg mandi kejap. sebenarnya nak rush ni jd mandi mandi kerbau saja.

hbes mandi, tgok drum x berpusing. oh tidak!!! masih blom betul lg mesin ni. rupanya ah masalah btol, dahla tgah nak rush pg rumah kawan ni.option kedua, amek baju baju y basah kuyup tu masuk dlm plastik ikea n bawak pg rumah kawan basuh. dah janji nak jumpa pukul 6, so x le lmbt.

saya x tau plak y beg ikea tu sbnrnya x seratus peratus kalis air. bile letak atas lantai basah karpet dibuatnye. agghh! no time to change plastic so bawak je la. n sepanjang perjalanan tu meninik nitik air dari beg ikea atas lantai. segan gile. ntah ape org fikir. budak ni bawak mayat ke ape?

bile dah smpi kat rumah kawan tu baru la terhegek hegek nak call die. call 2 3 kali x angkat angkat pun. aghh ada kelas gaknye. call org lain nak mintak tumpg basuh baju, x de sape angkat fon. tensen gile. nak balik rumah skrg x cam malas pulak sebab rumah jauh gile. teringat ade satu laundrette atas bukit. pg sane je r.

sewaktu senja kala y sejuk dgan beg penuh baju basah diperap dlm beg ikea y menitik nitik airnya, saya mendaki bukit curam. nama bukit tu ialah malborough hill, bukit paling curam saya pernah nampak kat bristol ni. sape sape y dah pernah smpi bristol die taulah betapa banyaknye bukit bukau kat bristol ni n masing masing x nak kalah curamnya. dan malborough hill ni ialah rajanya, bukit paling curam. mendaki bukit tu dgan beban tambahan ketika waktu sejuk memg sngt mencabar fizikal. dekat gym angkat berat berat pun x rasa seseksa naik bukit tu. Allah je la y tau betapa seksanya naik bukit tu. berpeluh dingin saya dibuatnya

ok on the top of the hill, jumpala satu kedai laundrette. nasib baik bukak lg. ok masukkan baju dlm washing machine tu sume bla bla bla. n then kene byr 3.20 pounds gune coins. nseb baik ade bwk coins sket td. ok dah settle sume. tekan la start. eh, nape x gerak pun washing machine ni? eh, eh? tekan la 'open door' button. pintu terbukak dengan suka hatinya. aghh!!! hbes 3.20 pounds coins ditelan begitu saja. pg la kedai sebelah beli air ribena sebotol utk dptkan coin lg. mula mule die bg 2 pounds 2 pounds coins. lpas tu saya pun mintakla die tukarkan 2 pounds tu jad 1 pound 1 pounds coins sebab kene byr 3.20 kat mesin basuh laundrette tu. masuk balik laundrette tu, siap alihkan baju sume, masa utk masukkan coins. secara x sengaja saya telah masukkan kedua dua syiling 1 pounds y saya tukar td. memg dah nak mencarut carut dah. last last saya kene byr 4 pounds utk laundrette y berharga 3.20 tu. senang senang je die telan 4 pounds.

bile balik smpi kat rumah, tgok lupe plak nak bwk kunci. tekan tekan loceng rumah (y x berfungsi) x de sape jwb. call no housemates. sume x jwb. mase tu rase mcm nak tendang je pintu tu. bile dah penat sngt dgn segala apa y terjadi, saya dok kejap kat tepi tangga. relax jap. try call balik kawan saya. Alhamdulillah, jawab pun. tgah tido rupanya.

nak basuh baju pun bnyk sngt drama

should join a play with all the dramas happening around here

seganlah nak letak tajuk

2011-02-27T17:28:00.000-08:00

tema hari ni ialah: kahwin (lagi...). asyik cite pasal kahwin je kblkngn ni, dah gersang sngt gaknya. sebab tu segan nak letak tajuk

kalo saya keluar ngan kawan kawan melayu kat uk ni, topik kawin tu memg x bole nak dilarikan la. memg akan dimentionkan gak although mostly topiknya hanyalah sekadar gurauan.

saya ada dgr cerita drpd kawan saya y mana dia tanya kpd ibunya tentang hal kahwin ni. berdasarkan pengamatan saya, die memg suka sngt ckp pasal hal kahwin, dah x sbr gaknye. pd mulanya bile die tanya dgan ibu die pasal nak kawin, mak die nampk mcm ok je, tp bile ditanya lg ibunya menentang idea tersebut. pd hematnya, mungkin ibunya nak tgu die balik msia dulu baru kawin, ye la, ibu mestilah nak tgok anaknya kawin depan mata sendiri. x syoklah tgok anak kahwin depan skype

jd seminggu y lalu, saya berskype dgn mak saya. saja ja saya keluarkan topik ni, nak tgok apa reaksi mak saya. dialog lbey kurg cam ni la,

setelah tamat bertanya khabar dan bersembang cerita lain...

saya: tu hari, kawan abg ade ckp ngan mak die pasal kawin kawin ni. tp mak die x kasik kawin kat sini. apa pendapat mama? (soklan lbey kurg cam gini la kot)

mama: abg dah nak kawin ke? (ooo snap!)

saya: eh, x la saje je tanye

mama: tgu la hbes blaja dulu x. dah ade calon kat uk tu ke?

saya: x de pun lg. ntah lah. kalo ade jodohnya ade lah kan. (saya ada isu dgn diri sendiri, sebab tu saya keluarkan statement ni)

mama: eh, mestilah ada jodoh. semua org ade jodoh

saya: calon tu x de la lagi. kalo bole x nak la bercouple couple ni.

mama: ooo nak terus kawin ke?

saya: umm lbey kurg la, nak kurgkan maksiat (ceh)

mama: mama bole tolg carikkan calon (saya x ingt ayat sebenar mcm mana, tp hint ayat lbey kurg cam ni la, n bende ni saya dah pnh dgr berkali kali dah dr mak saya)

saya: mama, nak tanya la. kalo abg kawin ngan org sini camne?

mama: org uk? islam ke?

saya: x la, kalo kawin ngan mat saleh?

mama: tp, mama x pndi ckp bhse inggeris

saya: bole la blaja bhse inggeris

mama: umm, mama x kisah sbnrnye, tp bole ke bimbing diorg?

saya: oo, x ni just soalan sekadar hypothetical je. kalau kalau je la berlaku

mama: mama x kisah pun sbnrnye

terus ngan kisah kisah lain....

jd begitulah, saya nak tgok apa pendpt mak saya. memg drpd mulut y mak saya katakan y beliau x kisah, tp saya berpendpt bhwa mak saya mestilah nak somehow get close to menantu jika suatu hari saya kahwin nanti. bile kahwin ngan mat saleh, masalah utama y dihadapi ialah language. kami sekeluarga as a whole memg x mengamalkan berckp bhse inggeris kat rumah, tp sebilangan ahli keluarga is considerably proficient in english usage. saya berpendapat mak saya x mahula x dpt nak mix jika perkara ni terjadi

kisah ni mngkin akan lg menarik jika ayah saya tahu. saya sbnrnye segan sket nak berbicara ngan ayah berbanding ngan mak sendiri. ntah ape la reaksi ayah saya kan

memg secara jujurnya, saya x berhasrat lg dlm hal ni. just nak tgok pendpt org tua saya dlm hal ni. masalah y saya katakan masih lg belum selesai. ini mungkin masalah individual, dan mungkin lbey mudah jika ada org y dpt bantu selesaikan tp to be honest, saya x masih belum percaya pd sesiapa lg utk menceritakan masalah tersebut. moga moga Allah terus membimbing saya dlm perkara ni. teruskan berdoa...

is it worthy letting the others know?

Valentine

2011-02-14T08:09:00.000-08:00

Before I writing on and on about valentine's day, I would like to stress my stand and opinions on this issue. I dont celebrate valentine n to me i think it is unappropriate for muslims to celebrate it. whether it is haram or not, it is not for me to judge, n i am still not quite sure what is the hukum of celebrating the day. it is unappropriate for the reasons of one- makes u closer to zina (adultery) and two- the history behind the day itself. i am not sure myself how far is the truth about the story, i mean it could be a rumour but what is the harm for not celebrating it anyway?

i realised that today is valentine's day after i walked passed by a group of people offering free hugs to pedestrians. at first i thought, "what another weird thing these mat salehs are up to now?" but soon realised that it is valentine's day. n after that, everything on the street just seems unusually romantic for some reasons. people coming out from shops with flowers, ballons and cards, thousands of couple holding hands and for the first time the flower stall by the coffee shop was out of stock. coincidencely, in the spanish class today we learnt a little bit too much about the word love:

- me gustas tu
- te amor
- me encantas tu
- te quiero

for me, love is supposed to be universal and not bound to time. so why restrict just one day for love? love should be celebrated everyday. the God Himself is All- Loving and He loves us every moment of our lives. we r encouraged to love and treat each others the way we want to be loved and treated. n love should not be seen only to exist between couples because the term itself is more general and applicable to everything. love to parents, love to friends, love to knowledge. everyting can be loved.

this morning, i had an upsetting dream. someone i fancy was about to get marry and i got the invitation to the wedding. i remember feeling sunk in despair and regrets in the dream. i felt like i should crash to the wedding and just blurt the words out. i was so devastated. when I woke up, at first i was very thankful that it was just a dream, but then i remembered asking The God to show me signs to the right path. n what we likes are not always be the best for us, for The God He knows everything. maybe this is not the relationship i am looking for

how do i move on from here?

p/s- a funny video i found in youtube. i will always remember this video each time valentine's day is mentioned. link is here

Final Fantasy Fashion Show

2011-02-06T17:25:00.001-08:00

Smlm saya tgok tgok kat ebay kostum kostum karakter ff. memg teringin jugak nak beli, dan kalo tgok harga pun rase mcm mampu je. tp simpan dulu la hasrat tu.

bile tgok kat ebay, saya jd rambang mata nak beli baju ape. jd saya nak letak gambo gambo karakter ff y saya admire kostum diorg (dgan harapan bole beli kostum mcm tu XD)

1) Cid Highwind

comment: kostum ni kalo buat jln jln kat bndr pun x nmpk pelik sngt xcept for the goggle. smpi hari ni pun saya x prnah nmpk org jln jln kat bndr pkai goggle

2)Vincent Valentine

comment: kostum ni semestinya hanya bole dipakai sama ada pd halloween, cosplay show ataupun geek party. kalo bawak pg bandar anda akan menarik perhatian org ramai mengalahkan badut badut kat circus.

* saya x pilih cloud sbab kostum die sleeveless. die kartun senang la x yah nak shave ketiak. n barret sebab baju die sexy sngt. die pakai t shirt jaring je

3) Squall Leonheart

comment: buat waktu ni memg x de sape lg y bole challenge kemachoan squall ni saya rase. tgok la kostum tu, mcm ade elemen elemen gothic + masculine + mafia. kalo bwk pg kelas ni gerenti minah saleh semua x benti benti mintak no telefon

4) Irvine Kinneas

comment: jaket y sngt cool. but huge drawback drpd costume ni ialah seluar irvine y nampak mcm pkai seluar dlm kat luar.

5) Seifer Almassy

Comment: Another cool costume but with a large cross in the middle of the chest. Dan cosplay belah kiri tu jaket die mcm gedabak sngt. gaya dah mantop dah

6) Zell Dincht

Comment: die pkai seluar pendek. kaki saya bulu tebal, buat malu je pakai seluar pendek

*karakter ff9 tidak menjadi pilihan atas sebab proportion body n leg diorg y x mcm manusia normal. jd bile saya cube kostum diorg mungkin akan lari imej y cube dibawa

zidane & amarant - sleeveless (enough said), steiner - motif sngt nak pakai baju besi, old school punye fashion pun x kan nak pakai kostum 1 abad y lalu, kuja - setakat ni saya x pernah lg nampak org y berani try kostum ni even in gay parade, vivi- comel!!! nanti nak carik plush vivi

7) Tidus

Comment: Kostum die ni agak kompleks, but i like it! die x simetri jd die nmpak unik

8)Auron

Comment: Oooh sngt cool. Kalo pakai baju ni mcm ade feeling bole jd karakter crite naruto ataupun bleach. Dngan botol sake kat pinggang n gaya x masukkan tgan dlm sleeve, oooh memg stylo abes

*wakka dan kimahri tidak dipilih sebab wakka punye baju nampak pusat (awww) dan kimahri.... memerlukan bulu dada y tebal die ialah makhluk biru mcm avatar

9) Baralai

Comment: Baralai ni warna kulit pun mcm seiras iras saya, so mcm seswai sngt kan. n then kostum die skali pndg pun nmpk mcm pendekar melayu. tp seluar die mcm seluar irvine la plak

10) Balthier

Comment: I like this. saye rase sgnt semart. sngt classy n piratey. tp seluar ketat sngt lor...takut lompat lompat cliff nanti terkoyak seluar

11) Larsa Ferinnas Solidor

comment: first of all, this kid is a guy. memg muka die terlbey jambu, tp abg die muka buruk gile. btw, i think his costume is cute n sweet

*vaan & basch juga tidak dipilih oleh penulis. kalo nak pakai kostum vaan kene dptkan 6 packs dulu. n basch punye kostum mcm beli dkt carboot sell je

12) Snow Villiers

Comment: Pd pendapat saya, satu satunya org y bole mengalahkan kekacakan squall ialah mamat ni. but he got different style. n outfit ni kalo nak digunakan waktu winter pun seswai sngt

13) Sazh Katzroy

Comment: I definitely dont want to get that hair knowing a chocobo lives inside it. Tp baju ni pun nmpk ok gak. x la gile cool but definitely looks nice. btw, square kene buat bnyk lg black characters supaya org kulit hitam hv more options waktu nak pg cosplay.

14) Hope Esthem

Comment: Baju ni nmpk memg comel n sporty in a way. tp saya da masalah dgan seluar pendek ni sebab...uh u know. tp saya rase memg nice la baju ni.

saya rase mcm nak buat poll discussion, dah lame x buat bende tu kan. agaknya kostume mane y paling anda gemari?

Ada crite politik sket ye

2011-02-03T11:11:00.000-08:00

Salam

Adakah kalian mengikuti kisah semasa mengenai situasi di Mesir skrg? Saya x lah mcm pg bace setiap blog org or bukak yahoo news setiap hari nak ikuti perkembangan isu ni, tp ambil tahu jugaklah.

agak menyayat hati bila ada saudara kita y seIslam dan juga senegara y skrg sedang hidup ketakutan kat Mesir tp bile saya bukak facebook, muda mudi di Malaysia sibuk dgan hal cintan cintun atau pun sibuk ngan hal hal lain *zass kene diri sendiri* seolah olah x alert mengenai isu isu sebegini.

ada satu quote drpd tokoh Islam terkemuka (saya x begitu pasti quote drpd sape ni yek, kalo ade y tau bole tulis kat comment)- kalau kita nak tahu macam mana suatu masyarakat itu pada masa hadapan, kita boleh tengok pada generasi muda mereka hari ni-

dan bila tgok generasi muda Islam hari ni di Malaysia, saya pun x boleh nak bygkan ape akan jadi pd masyarakat kita akan dtg. kalo kat uk ni, mat saleh baya baya saya tiap tiap hari mabuk mcm x ingt dunia, ntah 30 tahun akan dtg x tau ape akan jd kat negara diorg ni gaknye.

ok, sbnrnye agak tersasar drpd apa y saya hajatkan nak tulis. di sini saya sediakan link ke satu blog mengenai pandangan seorg rakyat tentang cara utk menyelamatkan pelajar pelajar malaysia di Mesir. klik sini

saya rasa majoriti org bila diberi case study mcm gini rata rata akan menyatakan bahawa kaedah y disarankan oleh penulis blog ni merupakan kaedah y x adil. kalo mengikut kaedah kaedah ethics y saya belajar memg dah fail dah penulis blog ni rasenye. kaedah beliau bertentangan dgan consequentialism, kantian deontology n virtue ethics. memg sngt inhuman ble die buat begitu bukan setakat kpd sesama umat manusia malah kpd org sebangsa, senegara dan seagama.

dan ada satu hadith Rasulullah S.A.W y menarik utk dikongsi dlm kes sebegini:

عَنْ أَنَسٍ رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُ عَنْ النَّبِيِّ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ قَالَ لَا يُؤْمِنُ أَحَدُكُمْ حَتَّى يُحِبَّ لِأَخِيهِ مَا يُحِبُّ لِنَفْسِهِ. (البخاري ومسلم)

Dari Anas ra., dari Nabi s.a.w., sabdanya: "Tidak sempurna iman seseorang dari kamu sehingga ia suka saudaranya mendapat (kebaikan seperti) apa yang ia sendiri suka mendapatnya."

Final Fantasy 13

2011-01-31T15:18:00.000-08:00

Salam semua

Hihi, saya baru je habes maen final fantasy 13 platform xbox 360. hehe baru je beli xbox 360 berserta kinect. pembaca dari msia tau ke kinect tu ape?

ff 13 logo

nway, square enix skali lagi membawa perubahan y agak drastik utk final fantasy 13 ni. sistem mp telah dibasmikan dlm battle. but diorg bg pulak tp (technique point) which is not quite the same with mp. pertamanya, tp dikongsi dgan semua ahli, jd bila satu character dah gunakan 2 drpd 5 tp y available, character laen hanya tgal 3 tp shje utk dispend. keduanya, abilities tidak menggunakan tp. hanya technique menggunakan tp.

hp is automatically healed after each battle, which is a good thing. so its no more about stamina, its all strategy n give all out in each battle. although hp is completely healed after each battle, unfortunately tp is not.

summon ff13 ni mcm ala ala transformers. diorg boleh berubah bentuk. antara y ada ialah shiva, alexander n odin. n setiap characters hv fixed summon utk diorg, mcm ala ala crite digimon jugakla. summoning summons (or eidolons) lbey kurg mcm ff10 n ff12 gak, tp diorg ade tmbhn gestalt mode di mana characters drive or rather work with their summons in gestalt mode n whack monsters out. what cool during the gestalt mode is, the battle becomes one way in which u can attack the monsters but not the other way around. however, command options r limited in gestalt mode.

lightning n odin (gestalt mode)
lightning n odin fighting in gestalt mode

vanille n hecatoncheir (gestalt mode)

snow n shiva (geestalt mode)

lvling lbey kurg mcm ff10. now, they allow players to choose their own way on how to level n shape their characters. but leveling path is still quite linear n players hv no problem raking their brain searching for the best attributes for each characters.

leveling system

dlm ff13, characters started quite specialised. for example, lighting (the main character) at first can only attack, do magic n heal. altho, at the end of the game, each characters can do what other characters do. ala ala mcm ff5 gak la, kita ada commando (attacker), ravager (magician), medic (healer), synergist (buffing party), saboteur (debuffing enemies) n sentinel (defender). switching back n forth jobs (paradigm shift) is what makes the game entertaining. different situations in battle require different combination of jobs to make the battle bearable or even beatable. so i think it is a fun system square enix included in the game.

paradigm shift

bnyk lg bende bende baru y square letak dlm game keluaran dorg ni. tp kalo nak crite sume malas pulak. mungkin korg kene maen game ni sendiri kalo nak feel tu. n lupe nak letak, jln crite ff13 ni pun memg masyuk sngt. lg mudah nak phm lah drpd ff12 at least.

my rating: 5 stars yeha!

n enjoy my hands by leona lewis, theme song for ff13 <3

Angau

2011-01-16T20:43:00.000-08:00

Sejak akhir akhir ni slalu ade perasaan ni. jln jln kat bndr bile nmpk y comel comel akan tersenyum sendiri. bile dlm bilik suke tgok video y romantik romantik. bile kat dapur tgah masak, akan menyanyi lagu duet balad. kat toilet tgah mandi pun same. lagu y same diputar waktu keluar berjln jlln pg bndr.

hati rasa berbunga bunga. teringin mahu bermanja manja. berbalas sayang. bercintan cintun la senang cerita

tp x tahu bgaimana hendak bermula. x tahu arah tuju. x tahu siapa orgnya. bahkan juga x kenal diri sendiri.

adekah mampu utk saya memulakannya? siapakah y patut disapa? ape y org lain fikir nanti?

pernah ade pengalaman skali. tp perasaan ni x ade waktu tu. hanya sekadar bertanya khabar melalui msg tiap taip hari. kdg kdg bertukar hasil seni tngan. tp perasaan tu x wujud. jd lama kelamaan hubungan x dpt diselamatkan.

tp skrg perasaan sudah ada. orgnye pulak y tiada. atau mungkinkah orgnye sudah dikenali jauh di lubuk hati? hanya tinggal utk disapa sahaja. tp, tulah. nanti ape org kata?

terus sugul dgan perasaan y pelik ni.

panas sungguh entri kali ni. jgan ade y muntah muntah ye. bole kene cancer oesophagus nanti

seminggu di north west england

2010-12-26T13:08:00.000-08:00

salam

malas nak tulis pnjg pnjg ape y saye dah buat sminggu ni

sabtu-ahad

pg melencong ke bath. lbey kurg 45 minit naek kete dr bristol ni. melencong utk menimba ilmu. mengenai sejarah islam. sebelum ni dah pnah dgar talk y sama, tp still rase nak dtg gak sebab rasenye sngt best. bnyk sbnrnye sejarah islam y x dimasukkan dlm kbsm, jd bnyk y sbnrnye kita x tau pasal islam sepenuhnya. ape motif dibuat begitu agaknye ek?

isnin

lepak lepak kejap sehari kat bristol, hari esoknya dah nak pg manchester utk program fuiyo (fun with iluvislam). saya ni salah sorg drpd ajk fuiyo, jd kene la bawak something utk prepare mase program tersebut. so hari ni is the only day nak shopping bagai sblum pg ke program trsebut. pd hari y sama, sempat pg rumah senior maen xbox 360 (i swear i will buy one of that....). maen final fantasy 13. saya ulang balik, final fantasy 13.

walopun x de platform y bole digunakan utk maen game tersebut, saya masih x berputus asa utk merasai game ni. saya dan final fantasy- memg x dpt dipisahkan. jd adik adik kat rumah, bersiap sedialah, abg balik nak bawak xbox 360

lightning n snow. cube teka sape lightning n sape snow?

the game applies new concepts in combat system. it has paradigm shift which enable characters to play different roles in battles, either as healer, attacker, guardian or many more. part of why square apply this system probably because now u cannot command characters other than the one u r controlling. so u get the idea that the battle is getting more intense. no more mp (magic point) system, probably because u can only give commands to one character, hence u cannot control how much mp the others can spend in battles. also, in each turn, u not necessarily can only perform one act.

selasa

pg ke manchester. coach bertolak pkul 5.50 pg n dijangkakan smpi pkul 10 pg, so kene subuh dlm bus. tp disebabkan pelbagai masalah, akhirnye smpi manchester pkul 1 ptg. ptg tu pg old trafford utk kali kedua, nak teman junior masuk stadium man u.

rabu-sabtu

fuiyo bermula. tbh, saya rase agak nervous sbnrnye. it is such a big event n takut saya x dpt nak buat tugas sebaik y mungkin. tp alhamdulillah segalanya berjalan ngan baik, except for a few minor problems but in the ends i think sume participants berasa seronok.

tp agak gile jugak la sepanjang berlangsungnya fuiyo. saya kene memastikan dewan berada dlm keadaan kemas utk sesi ceramah n kene amek video. x bnyk mase y bole saya luangkan utk diri sendiri mcm nak pg mandi ataupun berehat. bygkanlah, tiap tiap hari tido 3-4 jam je. pastu saya skip lunch 3 hari berturut turut. walaubagaimanapun, seronok sbnrnye jd ajk ni, seronok menguruskan participants. rase mcm lbey dekat ngan sume org berbanding kalo jd participant sendiri. tp kalo nak dibandingkan bz saya ngan bz pengarah fuiyo sendiri, memg x tertandinglah. pengarah fuiyo a.k.a boss saya tu lg sket rest die saya tgok. menguruskan hal sana sini, at least saya jaga dewan je. rase mcm spoil gile kalo saye merungut penat bile boss mcm lek je.

ahad lg

berada di manchester lg sblum pulg ke bristol. ni la nak merasa boxing day for the first time. boxing day ni kedai kedai akan buat sale y gile gile punye. hari dimana brg brg topman n river island turun separuh harga. hari dimana kedai primark bole jd kosong. hari dimana kalo beratur nak byr kat cashier bole amik mase stgh jam walopun sume counter byrn dibuka n cashier bekerja with max efficiency. hari di mana masuk kedai zara, topman, river island n foot locker rase mcm masuk ktm waktu org baru balik dr keje. hari di mana y kalo sblum ni jeling je tgok price tag kat baju baju mahal, hari ni tanpa perlu fikir 2 kali, terus sentap n bayar. last last saya telah membelanjakan around 150 pounds dlm mase satu hari. eh pembetulan, 150 pound dlm mase separuh hari. kalo diberikan peluang bole shopping smpi petang, mungkin kene darab 2 rasenye.

alhamdulillah, week y sngt busy ni sudah pun berakhir. skrg ni ade lg 3 minggu sblum january exam bermula, so kene la start study. insyaAllah

Gym

2010-12-14T10:08:00.000-08:00

Beberapa minggu sudah saya join gym. Hasratnye kalo bole nak jd tough sket la kan, sebab currently bdn ni memg mirip ngan papan luncur salji. Siap ade coursemate tego lagi, badan saya ni kurus sngt. Yela, nak compare ngan mat saleh kat sini, saya rase bdn saya sama saiz ngan peha diorg.

Dan bile pg gym, bile lalu depan cermin (dlm gym penuh ngan cermin, menggalakkan org menjadi narcissist) saya dpt lihat betapa papannya saya dibandingkan ngan org org lain. nmpk mcm x sihat plak kdg kdg.

pertama kali pg gym:
i got a tour around the gym drpd pekerja gym. dlm hati "wah, bnyknye alatan alatan berat y x termampu nak diangkat, x pe lame lame bole la angkat berat berat", buat sedap rase hati. lepas tu dibawanya pula saya ke bilik persalinan baju. ade sauna, shower, tanning room (i dont need it obviously because i hv nice brown skin, bak kate pekerja gym tersebut) n toilet. masuk saje area ni berkeliaran jantan jantan berbadan sasa pakai tuala saje ke hulu ke hilir. oh x pela, dulu kat asrama pun pg mandi kat bilik mandi pakai tuala je. so x dela culture shock sngt.

kali ke-3 pegi gym:
pertama kali pg gym by myself. so sental la maen sume machine machine y ade. rase agak pathetic gak la kene bace instruction sblum gune machine tersebut. kantol newbie. pastu, dah siap workout saye pun pg la ke changing room, amik jaket sume sblum ciao. di sudut bilik tersebut seorg jantan penuh bulu berdiri mengadap dinding tanpa sebrg pakaian. ok, awkward~ isnt this supposed to be a public area where people can come in n out anytime? bole plak die bogel kat dlm bilik ni kan? ah, x pe la, suke hati die la nak bogel. mat saleh memg cam gitu kot

kali ke 5 atau 6 pegi gym:
masuk ke changing room utk simpan jaket; penuh jantan berbogel kat locker room.
lepas siap workout, masuk ke changing room lagi utk amek jaket; hai, jumpe lagi....

high school

2010-12-08T08:18:00.000-08:00

saya rasa saya ni normal. people probably think im a nerd, but i dont think that is quite accurate. i am more to geeky than nerdy, i spend a lot of my time in my room playing games- n not revising. i dont really think i can be classified as kiasu. sket sket je la kot.

my high school experience i would say is pretty normal. saya x tergolong dlm golongan y suka membuli ataupun golongan y slalu dibuli. kdg kdg ade gak suroh adik adik dorm ironkan baju tp tu pun sebab dah lmbt. sekali sekala ape slhnya senior mintak tolong kan? saya pun slalu ape blanja adik adik dorm saya mkn kerepek.

tp rekod disiplin skola saya, saya rasa bole dikatakan bersih, licin berkilat kilat. nerd kan? pnah la gak fly, tp waktu tu cuti skola, so technically not really an official fly. n then prnah gak pnjt tangki air (kawasan larangan).

skrg bila difikir balik, saya rasa bnyk undg undg skola y mcm x masuk akal. x bole bwk seluar jean? x bole bwk maggi? x bole bwk magazine? x bole pnjt tangki air tu bole gak la diterima akal sebab tangki air tu tinggi, kang kalo jatuh ke tanah x ke cari pasal namanye tu

saya paling x puas hati ngan sorg warden ni. waktu bulan ramadhan, die akan tunggu kat bwh asrama die akan pastikan sume org kosongkan asrama sblum pkul 6.30 ptg. kalo bulan bulan lain x buat cam gitu plak. mcm, apekah? bulan puase of coz la org akan turun pg dewan makan tu. x perlu nak buat announcement pun, x de sape y nak dok kat dlm asrama mkn biskut mase bukak puase, mknn kat dm lg sedap. (n saya x phm, knape sume org slalu complain mknn dm x sedap, saya rase ok je). memg saya x phm warden warden mcm ni

lepas tu, kalo waktu subuh die kejut sejam sblum waktu smyg. kejut kalo dngn sopan santun x pe gak. terus kene rotan sebatang. terkejar kejar roh saya kembali mencari badan. kalo dah lmbt nak bgun subuh to mcm understood gak la, tp ni sejam sblum waktu smyg. n then, bile smpi kat surau, x de pun nmpk muke warden tersebut. smyg kat rumah je ke? berjemaah kot ngan anak bini (bersangka baik ni)

tp skola menengah merupakan masa y paling best skali bg saya. masa tu la, saya belajar seni dngan betul, dpt join pancaragam, buat persembahan on stage,dpt title best student n jumpe ramai sngt kawan y smpi skrg pun masih still in contact. betapa bergunanya fesbuk...

merindui sakti...

musim sejuk datang lagi

2010-11-26T18:00:00.000-08:00

tajuk di atas kalo bole dibaca dgn intonasi mcm iklan tora ataupun ding dang

tahun ni nampaknya, musim sejuk dtg awal. ade kemungkinan musim sejuk akan jd lg teruk dr tahun lepas. at least tahun lepas dah hujung hujung bulan 12 tu baru turun salji kat bristol. tp tahun ni, hari ni salji dah turun dah.

tp salji masih belum lebat lg la. bile la agaknye salji nak turun lebat lebat ye

ape ape pun saya agak x suke musim sejuk ni sebenarnye

sejuk

gelap

mendung

basah

jalan licin

sngt x seswai dgn saya, anak jati malaysia y dah sebati dngn suhu 30oC sepanjang tahun. tp nescaya bile balik msia nanti saya complain plak y msia panas sngt. Gosh, can i live somewhere in between? Vietnam?

mat salleh kat sini bile diorg dgr saya dari malaysia, with all empathy that they can give akan ckp "u must find it very different in here with the cold wheather"

ye, saya merana dgn musim sejuk ini

jd, saya amat mencemburui kecik y berada di australia skrg y sedang menikmati musim panas. oh, saya nak balik msia skrg...

walaubagaimanapun musim sejuk ni ade kebaikan tersendiri gak. kalo nak puasa, mase musim sejuk ni la paling best nak puasa. pkul 4 ptg dah maghrib. kalo korg ni jenis jenis mcm saya y bile waktu zuhur dah nak hbes baru nak bgun tido, terasa mcm puase 2 jam je. <----ish teruk btol perangai

well, its not like something that i can avoid. nak x nak i hv to deal with it. susah susah, kalo sejuk sejuk camni, waktu winter break nanti, dok je bawah duvet 24 jam, habes crite.

Hello peeps!

2010-11-26T12:48:00.000-08:00

Fuh- fuh- *meniup habuk*

it seems like my blog dah bersawang sawang. kalo kat skola menengah dulu, ade sawang dlm dorm ade kene maki ngan maher

n now im back with popular demand *crick crick*

agak malas sbnrnye nak bukak blogspot ni sebab system baru kat youtube y mane diorg buat join account youtube n google. i hv an account which join my goggle account (for my blog) and youtube but i dont remember youtube username for that account. so alkisahnye, bila saya nak bukak youtube, saya kene logout blogspot n vice versa. n disebabkan bukak youtube lg penting, jd blogspot ni pun dibiarkan.

setelah, lama memikirkan cara y efektif utk membahagikan masa, akhirnya im back to square one. jadual masa ade tertampal kat dinding, tp dah jadi hiasan dinding y hodoh je. sungguh x bermotivasi nak ikut jadual tu.

n hari ni saya join gym setelah berkali kali jugak diajak rakan serumah. memg dah lama berhasrat nak tmbh berat badan, tp x pernah nye berjaya nak cuba menunaikan hasrat tersebut. so, dumbbell y dibeli jd sarang sarang tikus je la kat bawah katil. i really need to put on some weight, tu hari angin kuat tiup, rase mcm nak terbang. insyaAllah dgn join gym ni, dpt menguatkan hasrat saya utk terus tmbh berat bdn.

n im thinking of taking music exam during summer break. so nak kene struggle blaja berjenis jenis scales, arpeggios n baca score. insyaAllah

n ape jd dgn course language saya? stkat ni just blaja spanish kat kelas. kalo ade free time try try gak french. its a tough subject tbh, sebab kita start from zero. so many words need to be remembered.

n study?

gosh, second year ni mcm x blaja pape. pegi kelas dgr lecture, balik online. kene insaf sket ni! last year dah fail satu paper.

but in the meantime, lets play ff7!

smoge ini menjadi distraction terakhir buat kali ni...(=_=')

secrets

2010-11-07T14:53:00.000-08:00

everyone has secrets. i believe that. big or small, there is something that we rather not share it with other people.

i hv one as well. well, actually i hv many...

lepas tgok drama omputih bnyk bnyk, saya tgok semua org kalo bole x nak simpan secret to themselves. diorg akan bgtau secret diorg kat org laen, someone they trust enough to keep their secrets

but i believe real lives dont work in that way. not everything worth sharing. mcm ape y saya belajar dlm ethics: confidentiality. ade secret, when we tell people about it, the consequences are devastating. seorg dokotr y x mnghormati prinsip confidentiality akan ada kemungkinan utk disaman oleh pesakit. even worse, medical profesion as a whole will be seen dishonest. so, one need to be wise to judge for public interest to keep a secret or tell it.

to be honest, there is a couple of things if possible i want to tell them to someone. keeping the secrets for long, they r killing me. tapi, bila ingt akan kesannya, saya nak x nak kene senyap. for me, this is not just a matter of guts, other people's feelings also need to be considered.

i am quiet, but that does not mean there is nothing in my mind. i just dont think it's worthy to let it out.

Glee

2010-11-05T18:20:00.000-07:00

Oh malas tahap karma saya skrg nih

skrg saya sedang mengikuti kelas spanish. kelas tu agak menarik, tapi spanish ni agak sukar gak la. its an important subject for my 2nd year doing medicine (sentap kan, budak medic kene blaja spanish) so, kene pass gak la subject ni. but, i think its going to be a useful subject. nanti bile travel kat spain bole la, kerek kerek seket berbahasa spanish:

cómo ésta? (komo esta?)

n also at the time being, saya pun blaja french sket sket. dgan harapan nak pg france around this academic year, so kene la tau french gak. org french x suke berbahasa inggeris ni, so kene la gune bahse diorg. so smbil smbil selak selak baju murah kat basilique de sacre-couer tu bole la bebual sket ngan org kedai:

excusez-moi, c'est combien c'est t shirt? (eks-ku-ze mwah, se koNbiaN se t shirt?)

sental saja...

tp bnyk mase dihbeskan dgan menonton drama series glee.

korg tgok glee x?

pada pendapat saya, saya x suka sngt main characters cerita tu. meluat tgok masing masing gedik bajet diva. tp saya paling suke bile diorg menyanyi, lagi lagi bile diorg nyanyi lagu y saya tau. memg saya pun turut sama la melalak kuat kuat.

n in one episode, diorg nyanyi lagu no air. my feveret!!!

hof kosla bg saya jordin spark n chris brown nyanyi lg best. eh saya nyanyi pun best gak

enjoy!

p/s- my feveret characters: kurt n britney <33333

should i join a gym?

2010-10-24T11:38:00.000-07:00

i am a kind of person who, if possible, want to learn anything

i want to:

learn to play piano
learn to play guitar
improve my clarinet n flute skills
improve my drawing n painting skills
learn more painting using other type of paints other than water colour n poster colour ( for example oil painting, tempera and fresco)
learn french
learn italian
learn spanish
learn arabic (i've been trying for years...)
learn japanese
learn advance mathematics ( i miss math <3)
learn some more physics (not just the one that i learnt in spm)
understand more about theory of evolution
learn to dance
learn martial arts
learn ancient history
learn more about Islam
do some exercise, gain muscle n be healthy
explore my ownself

but we only hv 24 hours per day, 7 days per week in which my classes take 1/3 of my day during weekdays n aprroximately 20% of my time whole week. but classes dont just finish there. if i hv assignment or homework or exam, then my study time will be prolonged, may take 2/3 time of my day. n life is not just to study, i need to get some rest, buy groceries, cook, eat, spend time in bathroom n toilet, socialise, pray, look out for mail, society works, catch up with current issues (which means being online) n some other things. how much time left for me to do extracurricular activities in a day? bless me for doing medicine which is taking so much time in my life...

to be honest, i am not really sure if i really want to be a doctor... life as a doctor seems so rigid...

time management

yeah, that is the answer for my dilemma. i am very unorganised when talking about time (and space!). i hate making a daily schedule routine because i noe i am not going to stick with it. n i feel 'breathless' having my everyday life predertemined in a schedule. i love having my schedule flexible for any sort of activities.

hmm u noe, when i just finished writing about that, it makes me think. maybe it is not a bad idea to make a daily planner for me. let see how it goes.

Friends

2010-10-21T18:16:00.000-07:00

Just a quick post, i hope...

I am so touched by friends the series. i know, i am so old school. the series ended like ages ago, n im just finished it now?

it was a great sitcom. it makes me want to hv that kind of close friend relationship. n the ending was so sad. u noe when u watch a series for a long time n then it suddenly finishes, it feels like a part of ur life is going away. when they say goodbye to the house, it really broke my heart to see them leaving. aww... i wish i could hv that moment of my own, where i make friends for a very long time n then hv to say goodbye to them. must be very sad... oh wait, i did have that moment. primary school, secondary school n college. college? umm not so much.

but i supposed i didnt really let myself go during all the farewells. i am a bit controlled of my emotion, so i tend not to break off of tears so often in public (at least after i started secondary school, i was such a cry baby in primary school). i guess being a bloke made me so. (wow, i used the term bloke- guys in uk slang). not so good for eq though. i really need to let off some of my feeling huh

nway, great sitcom. i enjoyed it so much n it really did teach me some values about relationship n feelings. aww, who wants to be my friends? we can play the table soccer together :D

Im in bristol again!

2010-10-07T10:48:00.000-07:00

it has been a long day, n u should say it has been a long time since my previous post. typical me =_=

i started my hospital visit today. n today activity is nurse shadowing. im not sure what to do actually during my placement in the hospital today. n the nurse who was looking for me didnt know what we're supposed to do either. nurse shadowing... am i supposed to follow the nurse like her shadow? n that is precisely what i did, except i didnt do it too much, i dont want to be looked like a stalker although i must say, the nurse is really hot nice.

nway, i get off at 12.30 after wondering really hard what to do n could not come with any satisfying answer. had to rush off a little bit bcause i have to help looking out for malaysian society booth in student union. but still, managed to finish one episode of friend in the interval.

n then i met a funny a cashier who wished me happy birthday one month n one week earlier. i looked at my phone n yeah, my birthday is exactly one month n one week ahead! i hope i will not be in hospital doing placement on that day

student union was packed today. its like going to a night club having a party. all suplies were ready: beverages, alcohol, food, condoms, loud music n people. nway, it was fun taking care of malaysian booth. everyone cannot stop themselves from coming to our booth n eating munirah's cookies. i must say, malaysian food is the best. next time, we should serve nasi lemak or ketupat rendang on our booth, n let see how much praise we can get

im looking forward to having fun n more friends this year in bristol. but one problem still persist, can someone help me being friendly?

wait wait, i almost forget. i made a new blog called all my knowledge. i havent finish with the design n layout yet n no post yet is made on that blog. the blog will all be about what i know, n share it with everyone else. so this blog (moment tale) will specialise in my everyday experiences n no more boring stuff. for those who r interested in boring stuff could check my other blogspot which will be released until i post a post in there which, i cannot say when exactly. knowing me, i would say probably take ages.

i should be doing some works now. tomorrow i will have another hospital activities, n im really not sure what it is. why second year is so mysterious n confusing? nway see u guys again later :D

dimensions

2010-09-27T20:01:00.000-07:00

i have left mathematics n physics for so long, so pardon me if i wrote this post wrongly

the concepts of dimensions are fascinating to me lately. u noe the 3d, 4d stuff. i always pondered what does it means when something is in 4d. i thought back then, 4d means like u can see something thru n inside 3d objects, sort of like another complex faces inside a rubix cube. apprently i was wrong. partially i think...

it is hard to imagine 4th dimension because we human beings live in 3d world. i really dont know how to imagine a world in 4th dimension n it is impossible to show 4d it our world because the nature of our world is in 3d n maybe it is partly because of the limitations of our senses.

so i watched a lot of videos n read a lot of articles on the internet about extra dimensions. n i found there r quite a numbers of views regarding the 4th dimension.

in our 3d world, all 3 axes (x,y,z) are known as spatial dimensions because they point us to a point in a space. u can also put another axis above the 3rd one n now its become the 4th dimension. where the extra axis is, i cannot show it to u bcoz it is simply cannot be presented in a 3d world. one interesting thing is, the 4th axis will be in a right angle i.e. perpendicular to the 3 other axes, which of course cannot be shown in our world.

ok another interesting thing about the extra dimensional concepts. a 4d beings can see a 3d objects from every point of views simultenously. not only that, a 4d beings can also see through inside a 3d objects even if the 3d objects are not transparent.

the reason i think the concepts are interesting is because it is related to sifat wajib Allah. Allah Maha Melihat. we always heard that Allah can see whatever we r doing even if we r inside a house or even inside a cave. n from our point of view we never see eyes following us everywhere we go, looking for our every actions, so some people might think, how is it possible to see thru a house? n of course a cave? the answer is by adding extra dimensions. a being can see through inside an object in a dimension below it just like we, a 3d beings can see inside a square. but, then again i am not pointing that Allah is a 4d being, bcoz clearly stated in the Quran that Allah is not like any of His creations, n dimensions r just Allah's creations, including 4th dimension.

the 4th dimension i said just now is just an abstract concept. some people relate it as spatial dimension n some others named it as duration or time like in the theory of relativity. so if the 4th dimension is time, than actually we r living in 4d world. it just that our senses r limited n perceived the world just as a 3d world.

n then, in quantum mechanics u will start to hear about another 6 tiny extra dimensions above the 4 that we r already experiencing, as proposed in string n m theory. i dont understand any of that thing, n i think it is just illogical that dimensions actually have size in another dimensions. but then again, i havent keep in touch with physics for so long, so my brain cannot make any sense out of it.

but one theory n explanation about extra dimensions is interesting (n easy to understand) for me on youtube came from a guy named 10thdim. he stated that the 5th n 6th dimensions r related to time. he proposed, that time in the 4th dimension as a straight line stretching in 2 directions infinitely (like in 1 dimension of space), n we r only experiencing the phenomena in one direction, that is going to the future. in 5th dimension, we can bend time n go to our past while in 6th dimension, we can instantinously 'teleport' thru time or even go to any possible events that may occur along ur lifetime. even if the events didnt actually happen in ur life!

n the stories about dimensions do not just stop there, apparently there are 7th, 8th, 9th,10th n 11th dimensions. n by 7th dimension, we r already discussing about infinte possibilities. dimensions above that r just mind boggingly weird.

talking further into this topic requires a very good understanding of quantum physics n dimensions in mathematics, n im just not good enough. but, upon stumbled on this topic, i am very fascinated with how our world looked so unreal n that the border between our world n the world of metaphysics is actually very close that what we can imagine. like what mentioned in dalil dalil, our capability is limited to our senses. we cannot see or feel other worlds but they truly exist.

interesting isnt it?

salam syawal

2010-09-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

eh, x hbes hbes lg beraye ko syafiq ek, org laen sume dah balik ipta, ko beraye lg ea.

jgan jelez~

hari ni org masjid dtg marhaban kat rumah. saya ni jrg sekali berpeluang nak menyaksikan marhaban kat rumah sendiri sebab dah 9 tahun dok merantau. so x sempat nak bermarhaban kat rumah

dan ditakdirkan hari ni abah blum balik keje lg. jd kat rumah x de ketua keluarga i.e. host

ganti kepada host ialah wakilnye, anak lelaki sulung

in other words saya lah wakilnye tu....

jd pengalaman ni agak mendebarkan. biase y join marhaban ni kanak kanak, middle aged man n sedikit org org tua. remaja mcm saya ni mane ade nak join marhaban. jd saya berasa agak janggal sebenarnye nak bergaul ngan mereka mereka ni. tulah sebabnye mendebarkan

hbes sume org bermarhaban, tibe tibe tuan rumah dijemput menyampaikan sepatah dua kata. dem~!

sngtlah impromtu. memg sat tu juga kene mengolah ayat nak menyampaikan ucapan. n i came out with

"terima kasih kerana datang memeriahkan rumah. sebenarnye ayah x de hari ni, blum balik lg dr keje. so.... alhamdulillah terima kasih"

boldkan kat so tu ye. it slipped out just like that! pak cik pak cik ngan budak budak kampung manela ade sebut so.... dalam percakapan harian diorg. my speech has mixed up malay n english now! sentap giler siot tetibe sebut so... n right after that, immediately words that can replace so... in malay came flooded into my brain: jadi..., oleh itu..., oleh y demikian....,

n i came out with so...

oh, not to mention my speech was so lame. it clearly showed a work in just a blink of an eye

alert: huge kid spotted beside megazord!

2010-09-17T12:06:00.000-07:00

who's out there is not a power rangers fans? if u're not, its whether u're not born in early 90's or u're just weirdo

i found these power rangers mighty morphin videos on youtube. i always wondered why they called the series mighty morphin anyways. is it related to morphine, the drugs? why put a name of drugs on a cartoon series? wont it be a bad influence to children?

btw, i found this episode. it's about trini's (the yellow ranger) doll became huge n started to collect everything in his bottle. i cannot embed the video here, so let me just put the link to the video here

what's funny with this episode is at 7.18 u can clearly see a japanese kid standing beside megazord.

lol at that huge kid! power rangers rocks!

i was literally roflolmao when i watched this episode

p/s i used to like billy the blue ranger before, i was such a nerdy kid :P

crite raye lagi

2010-09-16T01:41:00.001-07:00

non stop raye nampaknye kite kali ni ye, last year kat msia sempat raye 5 hari je. tahun ni raye 20 hari kat msia, x lekang rumah org bertandang

raye ke 5

raye ke 5 pg bershopping kat danga mall, sblom abah balik keje esoknye. kalo abah dah balik keje, x de fulus nak berberlanje.waktu abah tgah ade kat rumah ni la kene kelua bershopping tiap tiap hari

pg buat cermin mate kat shopping mall giant. niat di hati nak buat cermin mata utk saya sorg je. skali pegi, amoi y jage kedai tu trus tunjuk frame emporio armani, satu frame rm 700. pandai btol menghasut amoi sorg ni. lpas tu mak saye plak kene hasut beli spek rabun dekat. n then abah plak kene hasut beli spek hitam. last last satu family beli spek. memg bahye bershopping kat kedai kedai y ade amoi jage. berhati hatilah kalian

pastu, hanif dtg beraye kat rumah. sejam je die dtg ngan family die. mlm pg beraye rumah jiran depan plak. mama kalo dah bertandang kat rumah depan susah betol nak balik. bebual je memanjang. sentiase ade topik topik baru nak dibualkan. rumah org depan ni bole dikatakan opposite of my house la, n i dont meant just the location. behaviour penghuni pun same gak. kat rumah saye, penghuni sume senyap senyap, kalo bising pun bunyi musical instruments saye je. pg rumah depan, semue org bercakap mcm kat pasar tani

ok y penting part duit raye. dpt rm100 tuh dr org depan. same mcm y abah bg

raye ke 6

kali ni turn kami sekeluarga plak pg rumah hanif. dtg rumah hanif die x de kat rumah. salah saya gakla x kabor awal awal. so bebual je la ngan parents die

mlm hari org rumah depan plak beraye rumah saye. hari ni mcm reciprocal gitu ngan hari sebelumnye. hari sebelumnye hanif dtg rumah saye, saye dtg beraye rumah org depan. hari ni saye dtg rumah hanif n org depan beraye rumah saye. gitulah jadinye, hari raye ni sebaik baiknye kita berkunjung kunjungan

raye ke 7

eh dah smgu dah raye. tp aktiviti beraye masih lg blum stop stop. hari ni pg beraye rumah kawan skola rendah plak. 8 tahun dah x jumpe, tahun ni baru dpt jumpe balik. tu pun y dtg x ramai. ramai dah balik ke ipt masing masing. bnyk gak dah berubah. yang kecik ade y dah besar, ade gak y stay kecik je gitu.

saya ni memg jenis pemalu orgnye. kalo x diajak, x dtg saye beraye kat rumah org. segan la bila dah lame x jumpe tibe tibe je dtg depan rumah nak raye. tp dlm hati kalo bole memg nak jumpe sume org tanye kabor. bukannye bole jumpe slalu pun. ni nanti masing masing dah kawen, lgla susah nak kelua rumah.

ade kawan tu tegur, "x suke la aku blog org speaking speaking ni, mcm kerek" .

lol, ade aku kesah? x nak bace x pe, speaking speaking ni utk kepentingan diri sendiri dan pembace gak, blaja bahse inggeris. lagi lagi utk empunye bdn sebab dok kat negeri org kan, kene la gune bahse diorg. adepun kite ckp english accent malaysia pun diorg dah x phm, nak ckp bm ngan diorg lagi la.

nway, maaf zahir batin. x berniat nak salahkan sesiapa pun. just nak bercerita. blog ni kan dah lame x bercerita hal hal y menggembirakan. org putih kate 'let off some steam'.

ni sape sape lg y x dtg rumah aku ni dtg la cepat. 1 oct dah nak balik dah. tahun dpan x tahu lagi bole berjumpe ke x. jgan malu jgan segan. jgan biarkan saya pg uk bawak kuih raye bnyk bnyk. habeskan kat msia je, x pe. sebab saya pun x mkn sngt kuih raye.

n bersempena hari ni, selamat hari satu msia!

beraya sakan

2010-09-13T06:58:00.001-07:00

hari ni sudah masuk 4 syawal. 4 hari dah beraya. org kate raya sebulan.

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selepas beberapa tahun eid ul fitri saya dah menjadi sngt x meriah, tahun ni dah best balik. dah tue tue pun dpt duit raya, segan la plak (+o+)

raye pertama

raya pertama, hof kosla bgun semayang raye, balik mkn puas puas sambil tgok tv3. n then adat turun temurun, pg menziarahi kubur. kalo x de hari raya, memg x melawat rasenye kubur kubur tu. bz sngt dgan hal dunia katenye. ish ish ish... menziarahi kubur arwah atuk, nenek n moyang.

sbgi anak sulung kpd anak sulung atuk belah mak saya, saya ni dikira cucu arwah atuk y paling makan garam lah. in other words paling tue. x ramai sepupu sepupu dan adik beradik saya y berpeluang jumpe arwah moyang. mak saya ceritakan, dulu mase saya lahir suke arwah moyang main dgan saya. tp tu pun mase saya kecik kecik. rumah arwah moyang pun dah x de dah skrg. saya memg dah x berapa ingt lg dah memori silam ni. saya pun x berapa pasti bile arwah moyang meninggal dunia. mase tu memg kecik sngt

lepas pegi kubur tu, beraya kat rumah mak ngah. biase tahun tahun seblum ni, rumah saya y jadi port beraya sanak sedare sebab mak saya anak sulung. tp tahun ni tukar port plak. sepupu saya blaja bidang masakan, jd kene la test power. n then bnyk la sesi mengambil gambar. baju tgah lawa, make up tgah tebal, perut tgah kenyang, jd nilah mase y seswai utk amek gambo.

raye kedua

raye kedue buat ape ek? dok rumah je kot

raye ketiga

raye ke 3 balik kampung kat ayer hitam. lame dah x balik kampung, sebab x de sape kat kampung. atuk n nenek belah ayah pun dah meninggal, tgal mak cik pak cik je la kat kampung. dulu mase kecik kecik, saya suke balik kampung. ade ramai kawan mase tu. sepupu sepupu y sebaya ngan saya. dorg suke layan saya. balik kampung je mandi parit la, masuk hutan la, baling batu kat rumah mak long la, panjat pokok la, mandi tasik la, memg ade bnyk la bende bende liar bole dibuat kat kampung. tp sejak saya masuk skolah menengah, dah jarang dah balik kampung. mase tu atuk dah meninggal, sepupu pun semua dah besar besar belaka, dah x mandi parit lagi dah. dan saya pun dah x berminat nak balik kampung.

tp tahun ni, rase semngt plak nak balik kampung. nak jumpe mak cik pak cik, smbil mendgar gosip gosip terkini dr belah ayah saya. jumpe sepupu sepupu. semua memg dah besar besar belaka. semua dah keje. dah ade anak anak dah, pelapis baru. aii, ingt lg dulu mase skola skola. haha how time has passed really quickly.

raye keempat

raye ke empat, org kampung plak dtg beraya kat rumah. amek ko skali dtg 9 kereta. penuh depan rumah ngan kereta kereta sedare. nak pecah dah rumah td pnuh ngan org. dah la panas td, tmbh org ramai makin panas plak. bertungkus lumus mak ngan abah masak nak bg makan kat tetamu 9 buah kerete. licin terus nasik 2 periuk ngan mee satu kuali, walopun masak lauk ikan goreng ngan telur je.

habes beraya rumah saya, beramai ramai pulak serang rumah sepupu saya, anak mak ngah belah ayah saya kat pasir gudang ni jugak. lpas tu pg rumah abang pak long plak. setiap rumah y dimasuk tu makan je kejenye. tp tulah ajaibnye, setiap kali dtg beraya kat rumah org, perut akan sentiasa berasa lapar. at least x membazir org dah masak. kan kan?

trip 2 hari bersama org kampung telah menyebabkan jumlah friends kat facebook saye bertambah sbnyk bebelas belas org. wah org kampung pun skrg dah men fesbuk ye. jgan maen maen. fesbuk connected us. gitu motonye. skali lg, berjumpe ngan sanak sedare lepas stahun dok kat negeri org, menyebabkan saya berfikir, bnyknye dah berubah. td dtg, ramai nye budak kecik, anak anak sepupu saya. memg dah x kenal dah. dah sepupu sendiri pun x ingt name. ish ish, tgok kat diri sendiri, ape la akan jd kat aku nanti kan? kawin ngan sape? keje ape nanti? ade anak x? ish ish bnyk y akan berubah kan.

okay ni baru hari raya ke 4, raya lame lg ni. kat msia sempat raya 20 hari ni, kene optimumkan sgala masa y ada.

kpd rakan rakan semua, jemputla dtg rumah ye, lame x jumpe korg. bnyk gosip gosip terbaru nak kene update ni.

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-09T14:15:00.001-07:00

robo dance

2010-09-08T14:17:00.000-07:00

hey hey, tomorrow is eid ul fitr

n so what?

nah, just want to share this cool video from step up 3

it's just sick isnt it? (sick in uk means amazing) his name is madd chad. owhh n this is soooo cool!! u havent see moose yet from the movie, double sicks!!!

time to update

2010-09-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

wait wait! today is 7th sept? it's almost a month since the last update. wow, a new achievement, ( in a bad way though...)

let just say im not really doing anything worthy lately to be shown on blog. until this last few days.

kelmarin, saya keluar bersama kawan kawan dr sakti. berbuke puasa di tebrau city. it was one of the most amazing days i've ever had. after about a year being apart, finally we managed to get together again.

we met in the afternoon but buka puase is in maghrib, so we were left with 7 hours to wander around in tc. nothing much to do in that place if u r not supplied with cash, so we decided to kill off some time by watching movie. n a movie of choice is: step up 3!

i would like to put some poster of step up 3 tp since now is bulan puasa, i dont think it is appropriate to show a picture of a man and a woman in a forehead-to-forehead kissing position.

comment: huh lame x buat review kan. but this movie is just too amazing n i think it is like a lost if u guys r not planning to watch it. it is just mesmerizing. n right now, i cannot find a word good enough to describe the movie other than mesmerizing. waa cakap sama lu, gempak ma!!! i think the most compelling parts of the movie are the dances. they really put new definitions n perceptions in the arts of dances. although personally i think some scenes r unreal in real life (is it possible to suddenly spring into dances n synchronise urself with other people?) but then again, if a movie is real, would it be interesting? but seriously, this is a must-watch-movie! better than the previous step up and step up2. way better... it's really good, it makes me wanna street dancing too. it is that good!

anyway, we break our fast together in nando's. the place was packed with people, it took like 30 minutes for us to get what we ordered after azan maghrib berkumandang.

after that, we went to baskin n robbins for some desserts. i was stuck with high ranking personnel in amak society so i hv to follow them, fulfilling their every desires on food. on the way back to my house, we stopped in mcd for more foods. dont look at me! i am not the one who is craving for mcd!

at last, after all hungers n thirsts have been eradicated, we went to my house, had a lot of pillow talks n some of us fell quickly into slumber. one of us had to stay all night to make sure we would not miss sahur (even after all the foods stuffed messily within the last 6 hours into our stomachs). n we didnt. had sahur in kfc, n i must say options for sahur meals in kfc r very limited n not interesting. tp sebab ade org nak sngt mkn kfc, n that is the only restaurant that i saw that opened at that time so we dont hv a choice.

meeting u guys again made me thinking; we hv changed so much. mase skola menengah all we think was spm n what to do after that. matrix, diploma or study oversea? camne nak handle junior y makin naek kepala. or even waktu junior junior, cara cara nak mengelak dr kene suro amek mknn or basuh baju dr senior, mengumpat pasal warden warden y kdg kdg emo x bertempat. n now, we r all grown ups. crite pasal kerjaya, uni life n masing masing ade kereta sendiri. i wonder what will happen to us if we meet again later in life. will the topics of discussions also change? will everyone be the same? how about appearances? lives? career?

last we met, many aspects of our lives have changed, but u guys r still my friends. the friends that i know since 9 years ago. hopefully, this friendship will stay forever, kinda like the graduation song.

so lazy to upload photos of the mini gathering.....

ape dah terjadi pada saya?

2010-08-17T04:07:00.001-07:00

salam rakan rakan

jawapan bg soklan di atas ialah: tiada ape ape y terjadi kepada saya. harap maklum

cume rase blog ni dah lame x diisi. mase pertama buat blog, tiap tiap hari ade entry baru. jd rase mcm nak memeriahkan blog ni kembali dgan something. n that something is just dgar saya berceloteh tanpa ade sebarang motif. jd kepada sesiapa y nak memelihara puasa mereka dr perkara lagho, mungkin boleh navigate away from this page.

sejak akhir akhir ni saya mendapat minat baru plak. bukak youtube n tgok siri documentary. mcm mcm dah saya tonton antaranya:

biografi leonardo da vinci
biografi michelangelo
kisah Nabi Isa a.s. from bible point of view
siapa penulis bible sbnrnye?
kajian untuk mencari tarikh sebenar waktu berlakunya banjir besar ketika zaman Nabi Nuh a.s.
dokumentari kerajaan Parsi
dokumentari tentang dinosaur
dokumentari tentang theory of evolution
dokumentari tentang the evolution of feather
dokumentari tentang theory of creationism

tahukah anda:

leonardo da vinci is an illigitimate. aside from a great artist, leonardo da vinci juga merupakan seorg anatomist, mathematician, physicist, biologist, botanist, zoologist, philosopher, geologist dan mcm mcm lagi bidang ketika zamannya
michelangelo menyiapkan ukiran agung pertamanya, La Pieta ketika dia berumur 20 tahun. dan ukiran david pula disiapkan ketika dia berumur 25 tahun
Wolfgang Mozart mengkompos skor lagu piano ketika dia berumur 7 tahun
Nabi Isa a.s. dibelot oleh pengikutnya Judah the Iscariot dgan hanya dirasuah sbnyk 30 syiling perak bersamaan dgan nilai harga seorg hamba ketika itu
tahukah anda perbezaan antara old testament dan new testament? ramai scholars dan gereja zaman skrg percaya bahawa new testament sebnrnye dikarang oleh pengikut pengikut Jesus. some even believe bible was actually written by eye witnesses kisah nabi Isa
tahukah anda usaha mengkaji bible's authenticity dicetuskan oleh gerakan reformation oleh Martin Luther di Jerman ketika abad ke-17?
kisah banjir besar Nabi Nuh sedang dikaji dan dipercayai terjadi di Laut Hitam berhampiran Turki.
antara pemerintah terkenal kerajaan Parsi di Parspolis ialah Sirus The Great y mana ramai scholars mengaitkan beliau sbgi Zulqarnain sepertimana diceritakan dlm Al-Quran. Antara sebab ramai org mengaguminya sbgi seorg pemerintah tersohor ialah kerana dasarnya y memberi kebebasan kepercayaan kepada penduduknya.
dinosaur is related to birds? tahukah anda tyrannosaur rex dan burung berkongsi ancestors y sama?
tahukah anda ape theory of creation? terdpt beberapa jenis creationist, drpd y percaya alam semesta ini dicipta 100 000 tahun y lalu kpd y percaya process of evolution is guided by Intelligent Being.

kalo boleh saya memg nak bercerita sume bende ni dlm blog. berkongsi ilmu manfaatnya bukan kpd org ramai shj, tetapi juga kpd diri sendiri. tp x pelah, len kali je lah kalo saya rajin.

my new project: a comic!!!

2010-08-09T17:07:00.000-07:00

well quit about the music stuff for a moment. man, i am really into this blogger lately. i havent write this much in blog since the time i started blogging. hmm probably lately i ve been thinking too much. n its good isnt it? at least u know how ur best friend in here is doing!

i am in this new project now. i want to produce a comic. also in the time being, i am supposed to make some paintings and potrets as well, u know just to utilise all the free time i have now. so i think i should post this on blogger so that it can keep motivate myself with the project

nway, about my new project, i havent really decided on the title yet. i hv one suitable candidate for the title: zodiac, probably gonna go with that, but let see first. probably u guys might hv better ideas, so drop any comments on that

right now, i am building a plot for the storyline. making up all the dialogues and stuff.

so let me explain the storyline: its a story sort of like fairytale. a princess from a far far away kingdom is being kidnapped by a dragon. and of course the king was despair with that and he sent out notices and fliers looking for people brave enough to rescue her daughter. but unlike any other fairytale, the princess was not being saved by just one prince. instead, she has 11 saviors coming to rescue her. so which one from the 11 heroes will finally rescue her?

the main characters will be named after the astrological zodiac signs, hence the title name. and i already put virgo as the princess, so im sorry to all people with virgo signs out there, virgo wont be the one who saved the day, but she still hv some actions in the storyline. watchaa!!

and also, i am thinking of not just choosing one or two characters as the superior main characters in which the storyline is all based on him or her, i want all 12 characters to hv their own conflicts, dramas, and twists. so i am thinking of applying skins-like perspective in here. if u watched skins, each episodes is explained and narrated from one character's point of view. so thats is what i want to do. the first episode will be prologue; the beginning, hence none of the characters will be overexposed in the first episode. i just want to explain the whole situation in the first episode. and then i want to start the second episode from gemini's point of view. and so it follows, seeing the storyline from all characters' perspectives until the series finish.

i might have to produce 13 or 14 series of the story if i want to do it that way. also, i want to include an extra character who is not in the 12 astrological signs. he will be the antagonist in the story.

so, thats all from me now. gotta work and be productive sir. so i hope u guys will help and support in my project in here. who knows, it might sell! haha just kidding (not really :P)

p/s- i hope to produce the comic in english. any helps in grammar is hugely welcomed :) owh, yeah i hv a sister for that :)

music theory lesson 3: minor keys and scales

2010-08-08T21:58:00.000-07:00

Salam

Since I am still in the mood for writing, lets just move on to the next lesson. keep them all coming shall we?

But in order to understand this lesson, u might first need to understand the 2nd lesson, in here

Just in case if u want to review our first lesson, its here
(warning: lesson no 1 is not in english)

its quite easy actually to understand minor keys if u already understand major keys. ok why the heck am i suddenly using major keys instead of major scales? is there any different in it?

just think of scales like u r playing do re mi fa so la si do. so if u r playing scale in C major, u will be playing C D E F G A B C. but in a music score, a score that utilise only notes from C major is called in C major key instead of C major scale.

while there is only one form of major scale; the do re mi fa so la si do form, a few types of minor scales existed. lets discuss about them one by one.

natural minor

natural minor is almost exactly like major scale. just think when you r playing major scale as do re mi fa so la si do, in its minor form u will be playing la si do re mi fa so la

for example: in C major scale, the notes are C D E F G A B C. C major scale relative i.e. its minor form is called A minor. in A minor, the notes are A B C D E F G A. in both, C major and A minor, there is no sharps or flats. like i said before, if u r playing C major on a piano, all u need to press is the white keys. its all the same if u r playing natural A minor on piano, all u hv to press is the white keys.

lets take another example: Bb major. in Bb major scale, the notes are Bb C D Eb F G A Bb. in its minor form, Bb major is known as G minor. so if u r playing scale G minor, the notes are G A Bb C D Eb F G. both Bb major and G minor have two flats; Bb and Eb (although in Bb major, it seems like it have 3 flats, the Bb at the beginning and the end of the scale is considered as the same)

ok and another example: A major. in A major scale, the notes are: A B C# D E F# G# A. there are 3 sharps in A major scale. in its minor form, A major will be F# minor and the notes in F# minor is simply: F# G# A B C# D E F# (again, the F# in the beginning and the end of the scale is considered the same)

using these 3 examples lets examine minor scales even closely:

C major:C D E F G A B C
A minor:...............A B C D E F G A
Bb major:Bb C D Eb F G A Bb

G minor:.....................G A Bb C D Eb F G
A major:A B C# D E F# G# A
F# minor:................F# G# A B C# D E F#

p/s-sory it looks so mess up. i dont really know how to present this nicely on bloggers

do u notice that it seems like all the minor scales start from the 6th note of their major form? well yeas indeed (u can think it that way) basically every other natural minor scales are also the same.

see how it goes neatly the major and minor keys in this circle of fifth?

ok so lets discuss about the pattern that shapes all natural minor scale. if u remember, in major scale the steps in between the notes of a major scale is w w h w w w h (w as whole step and h as half step), in minor scale the pattern is simply w h w w h w w

lets try it on our favourite minor scale, the A minor:

1)queue up all the notes in between two As

A A# B C C# D D# E F F# G G# A

2)but in A minor, we only play notes in the red

A A# B C C# D D# E F F# G G# A

3)notice all the steps in the scale: from A to B is a whole step, and then B to C is a half step ( we dont skip any note in between B and C). C to D and D to E are whole step again and followed by another half step from E to F. finally, both F to G and G to A are whole step again
4)so in summary the steps in A minor looked like this:

A (w) B (h) C (w) D (w) E (h) F (w) G (w) A

...w h w w h w w. try it on to other minor scales!!

harmonic minor scale

this is 2nd form of minor scale. harmony in music is sort of like a voice or sound that reduce the overempowering melody voice

lets first see the difference in between natural and harmonic minor scale in our old best friend, A minor :)

natural: A B C D E F G A
harmonic: A B C D E F G# A

in harmonic minor scale, simply just raise the 7th note half step. it makes the scale sounds like the 7th note 'lead' to the 8th note.

so if we take for example a C minor:

natural: C D Eb F G Ab Bb C
harmonic: C D Eb F G Ab B C

notice, just by simply raise the 7th note half step, now the Bb changes to B

lets take an even more difficult example, G# minor with 5 sharps

natural: G# A# B C# D# E F# G#

wait! if we raise F# half step, it will become a G. we r not playing any notes related to F at all?

fear not my friend. this is where the double sharps comes in. a note with double sharps means that note is raised two half steps/ a whole step. so yes, in a way, if we raise F two half steps it will become G, but we can also called it F double sharps. in music, double sharps is annotated as x, hence an F double sharps looked like this: Fx

so back to our G# minor scale:

natural: G# A# B C# D# E F# G#
harmonic: G# A# B C# D# E Fx G#

simple isnt it?

before we move on, harmonic scale sometimes is also knows as Mohammedan scale, because of its upper part of the scale sounds a like Middle East flavour.

melodic minor scale

this will be our last lesson for this time being. if u already understand natural and harmonic minor scale, this last one wont be that difficult theoretically. practically? let just say u need a lot of practice

straight to example with A minor:

natural: A B C D E F G A
harmonic: A B C D E F G# A
melodic: A B C D E F# G# A

ok, now instead of just raising the seventh note half step, now we raised both 6th and 7th note half step.

lets try it on B minor:

natural: B C# D E F# G A B
harmonic: B C# D E F# G A# B
melodic: B C# D E F# G# A# B

see how by playing a melodic minor scale, now u hv an extra 2 sharps in B minor?

even harder example: G# minor

natural: G# A# B C# D# E F# G#
harmonic: G# A# B C# D# E Fx G#
melodic: G# A# B C# D# E# Fx G#

thats all for the time being. before i finished, i want to say something. u might think, owh this is ridiculous, only a student majoring in music should know all this. where do this hv any relevant at all in us, a music player who plays music just for fun. well yes sort of, if u play for fun this theory might be little use for u but actually in music exam, u sorta need to know all this (at least u r expected to know how to play F major, G major and A minor in 1st grade clarinet exam and of course in 8th grade u need to know how to play all kinds of major and minor scales).

does that means i want to take a music exam? well let just say that is one of my wish. because u know, the only way to improve myself in this area is by using exam as a medium. im going to challenge myself until i can play like all my fellows in bristol music society (determined face)

so thats all for now. maybe i will explain about arpeggios or any other stuff in the future. c ya!

music theory lesson 2: major scale

2010-08-08T05:57:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum all,

lets continue to our 2nd music theory class after like ages since our last *and also the first* lesson.

dont worry if u cannot remember anything from the first lesson, because this time the lesson will be totally different.

its about major scale. ok what is major scale?

before we get deeper into the topic, lets first familiarise ourselves with the notes and keys on piano. this is crucial in understanding major scale for people with no experience in music * including those with only slight experience with recorder*

learning piano keys
above is a picture of several piano keys from 88 keys (usually) on piano. now each of these keys have their name. well yes all 88 of them have names. but luckily, the names are just repeating itself so u hv no problems in remembering them.

firstly, notice how the black keys seem to alternate themselves between a group of 3 and 2? it is important to notice that in order to know the rest of keys.

if u already noticed that, now we can take an even smaller scale of piano keys.
basically the rest of the piano is just a repeated version of the above keys. you can take a look on a real piano itself if u dont believe me. so which key is which?

let first divide the keys into two groups; the left part with 3 black keys and the right part with 2 black keys. on the right part (with 2 black keys), the white key in between those 2 black keys is D, (remember that!). and we can easily guess the white keys to the right and left of the D key, that is of course C and E. so on the right part, if we play from left to right, the notes are C, black key, D, black key, E.

on the left part (with 3 black keys), the white key in between the first 2 black keys is G and the black key in between the last 2 black keys is, as u guess it, A. the key to the right of A is B and the key to the left of G is F. so on the left part, if we play the key from left to right again, the notes are F, black key, G, black key, A, black key and B.

now, what are those black keys? they are notes in between two notes. ????

haha, ok u might have heard people say B flat or C sharp. have u ever heard that? hopefully yes. lets take note D (the note in between 2 black keys in the 2 black keys group). the black key to the left of D is what we called D flat. in music, flat is annotated as b. so a D flat will looked like this: Db. the black key to the right of D is D sharp, and sharp is annotated as #. so a D sharp looked like this: D#.

basically a black key to the left of a particular white key is a flat to that note and the black key to the right of a particular white key is a sharp to that note.

okay a few questions now:
1) the black keys are not just to the left and right of any particular white keys, the black keys are in between two white keys as well. so is that means that a black key can be both sharp and flat?
- well yes they are, the black key in between C and D can be known as both C# and Db

2) there are no black keys in between B and C and in between E and F, so there are no B#/Cb and E#/Fb?
-that is not true. B# is simply note C and Cb is simply note B. the same to E#/Fb. E# is F and Fb is E.

so, above is basically the name of each keys on piano. tadaa!!

Steps
now before we can go to what we are supposed to discuss today (major scale), we need to understand steps

i dont know how to explain steps so let just continue straight to example.

basically there are two kinds of steps: whole steps and half steps. half steps is an interval between a note to it's sharp or flat. for example half step above note C is C# while a half step below note C is Cb (or B, look at the piano keys)

whole steps is basically two half steps. for example, a whole step above note C is D while a whole step below note C is Bb (not B! because half step below C is B, look at the piano keys)

so just think of half step as a note to the left or right of a particular note, considering the sharps and flats as well of course.

Major scales
now we can learn major scales.

lets come back to our first question: what is major scales?

first lets define scale. a scale is a collection of notes in between a range of 2 notes. there are plenty types of scales: major, minor, chromatic... but we are only considering the major scale in the time being.

there a lot kinds of major scales, but essentially all of them sounds like do re mi fa so la si do. well, u know do re mi fa so la si do, like how this boy sings (in the first 4 seconds of the video)

let takes two major scales: C major and D major.
in C major scale, the notes are C,D,E,F,G,A,B,C.
if u play the C major scale on piano, all u hv to press is the white keys. C major is usually the easiest major scale to play, because it is very linear, no sharps and flats.

now to D major scale, the notes are: D,E,F#,G,A,B,C#,D
notice there are two sharp notes in the scale. F# and C#. although collectively it looks very different than C major, but if u play it, it still have the do re mi fa so la si do sound. just relatively in different pitch.

like i said earlier, all major scales has do re mi fa so la si do sound. so that means there must be a similar pattern in all major scales to retain the do re mi fa so la si do sound.

the pattern lies in the interval between notes. remember the whole and half step we just discussed right now?

lets examine the intervals between all notes in C major scales:

1) lets put all notes in between 2 Cs in C major scales, including the sharps and flats

C C# D D# E F F# G G# A A# B C

2)but in C major scales, we only play the notes in red (all the notes without sharps and flats)

C C# D D# E F F# G G# A A# B C

3)now notice from C to D is a whole step. then D to E is another whole step. but from E to F is just a half step (we dont skip any note in between E and F). then from F to G is a whole step again. G to A is a whole step as well as A to B. but then, B to C is also another half step.
4)see the pattern in here:

C(w)D(w) E(h) F(w) G(w) A(w) B(h) C

(the w and h in the gap in between notes above represent steps; w as whole step and h as half steps)

basically all major scales have a similar pattern of steps: w w h w w w h, the same as D major

applying the above methods:
1) lets put all notes in between 2 Ds in D major scales, including the sharps and flats

D D# E F F# G G# A A# B C C# D

2)but in D major scales, we only play the notes in red

D D# E F F# G G# A A# B C C# D

3)see the pattern in here:

D(w) E(w) F#(h) G(w) A(w) B(w) C#(h) D

tadaa! magic isnt it? haha not really.

in music score, we can recognise what major key we r playing from the beginning of the score. for example like this:
two sharps there means we r playing D major in here. in a music score like above, all Cs and Fs in that score will automatically turned C# and F# except if otherwise mentioned.

another example:
above is F major. in F major, there is 1 flat; a Bb. so in F major the notes are: F,G,A,Bb,C,D,E,F

below is a summary of all major keys (also minor keys) existed. they call it as the circle of fifth.
you probably noticed in the inner circumferences of the circle is written minor keys. minor keys will be covered later!

that's all for now. hope this helps. just drop questions anywhere u want if u hv any :)

confession emak saya

2010-08-05T23:08:00.001-07:00

sejak malam smlm lg saya bersengkang mata x tido sebab ade appointment ngan dentist hari ni. ntah la, jet lag saya baru je smpi. dah smgu kat rumah baru nak jet lag. jet lag pun jet lag gak kot.
so sdg cuba utk kembali ke mase tido y normal (note: saya ni waktu tido ala ala vampire, nocturnal gitu. malam aktif, siang hibernate, so nanti dah jd dr, mungkin saya bole amek shift malam)

pg td anak beranak pg jumpe dentist. ayah saya gigi pecah, saya pulak nak bersihkan gigi. doktor tu tunjuk kat cermin, hah kuning kau gusi. ok lepas ni, setahun at least pegi jumpe doktor gigi 2 kali.

lepas tu kami pun mkn mkn kat luar. adik adik sume tgah skola, jd tgallah abg sulong ngan mak bapak.

maka, mak saya berbual pasal gigi adik saya y terkedepan sket tu. katanye nak pakai braces tp x pakai pakai lg

kata mak saya: senang je nak jaga adik y no 2 tu. lepas susu je die hisap jari ,tido (punca gigi x rata). anak y paling senang nak jaga, anak no 2 tu lah.

lepas tu mak saya smbg lg: y paling susah nak jaga, ni hah (sambil menunjuk ke arah saya). menangis je keje

saya memg dah agak dah. saya ni paling susah skali nak dijaga. dr kecik smpi ke besar rasenye, perangai memg lain mcm sket.

hoho saya berkata dlm hati (anak no. satu memg lah susah).

Lady Pasta singing bad romance

2010-08-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

Check this out. Currently really hv nothing to do, so I exploring videos on youtube.

I have watched this video so many times, I already memorised the lyrics!!

mwbc (malaysia world band competition)

2010-07-31T10:49:00.000-07:00

so, buat kali keempat saya keluar rumah sejak balik ke malaysia pd hari ni. umm semalam sbnrnye pd pkul 7 mlm. wah keluar malam gitu. tp bukan pegi ke kelab malam atau lorong lorong sempit ye, saya pegi ke kota iskandar, jb utk menyaksikan pertandingan malaysia world band competition anjuran kfc, mba n ape lg ntah.

i would say they picked a very grand venue, kota iskandar. tmpt tu baru siap dibina tahun lepas. infrastruktur kawasan tu mcm kat putrajaya gak lah. mcm putrajaya gak tmpt tu masih lg kosong x de pape. katenye akan jd pusat ekonomi jb kat situ. however the main drawback during the competition is the stage. there was no seat high enough for u to see the formation in full except for cameraman who stayed on the roof. since we r talking about marching band competition, this particular problem is a massive inconvenient. dah la saya dok same level ngan stage, dok kat blkng pulak tu so sound pun x brape jelas.

the event was held since 24th july, started from shah alam, selangor. however most events took place in johor bahru, johor n the finale was in nusajaya, johor bahru.

list of participants n winners:

participants:

Sultan Ibrahim Girl School, JB
Masama All Star Band, Indonesia
Sinar Husni Band, Northern Sumatra,
Jembar (?) Marching Band, East Java
SMJK Keat Hwa, Kedah
Sekolah Tun Fatimah, JB
Bahana Spradha (?) Marching Band, Balikpapan, Kalimantan
St. John Institution, KL

Winner National Category:
1) SMJK Keat Hwa, Kedah
2) St. John Institution, KL
3) SIGS

Winner Open Category
1) Bahana Spradha Marching Band, Balikpapan, Kalimantan
2) Jembar Marching Band, East Java
3) SMJK Keat Hwa, Kedah

during the band competition, ade gak battle drumline, tp x de pengumuman winner.
-Masama All Star Band vs SIGS
-Mahathai Band, Thailand vs Jember Marching Band

kalo x disebabkan stage, i would think it was a splendid show.

saya ade amek gambo sket sket, tp malas lah plak nak upload. owh lupe nak bgtau bahana spradha marching band memg mantap giler performance diorg. siap bawak tmpt salin baju lg dlm formation. n sound quality memg the best, walopun saya dok kat blkg je. setiap band ade theme diorg sendiri. im not sure stf or sigs y bawak theme from east to west and i think masama bawak theme traditional. bahana spradha punye theme michael jackson, a very specific theme. sume lagu y diorg bawak lagu michael jackson, kostum pun dah mcm michael jackson. siap bawak gambo michael jackson sebesar besarnye. they deserved the first place.

it was a very cool and exciting night!

nak buat sesuatu y bermanfaat

2010-07-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

ok dah cukup seminggu dok rumah x produktif. rasenye dalam sehari x sampai 100 meter pun saya berjalan. dok depan laptop je memanjang.

from facebook, i noticed some of my friends are busy organising and participating events during this summer time. ade y pegi vietnam n afrika slatan for humanitarian aids, marathon or even berbasikal for 10 days

me?

tiba je hari cuti cam gini, saya dok kat bilik memanjang. with one aim in my mind, maen game puas puas, balas dendam waktu tgah exam x bole maen.

now, game pun x hbis hbis lagi, tp dah rase bosan. hmm x de duit nak keluar dan x de kenderaan. last year, pegi melnacong ngan fer kat kl n kelantan, tahun ni papa kedana.

actually, i hv been doing something during this holidays. regaining and improving my ability to play clarinet. now, there is some problems with my flute (the middle f and high f# are difficult to blow, blame it on the cheap flute) i focus on clarinet instead. has been training my sight reading as well. but i only train for 2 hours a day, after asar and before maghrib. dont want to play the whole day, might enrage the neighbours. and so i am left with the rest of the day pondering what else to do.

suggestion?

hmm dapur dah lame x berasap. mungkin boleh belajar buat kuih n kek.

Membebel bile balik malaysia

2010-07-26T01:57:00.000-07:00

its been long time with no update. can see dust all over my blog

i hv arrived back to my hometown (jb!) for about a week. nothing much changed in here. but very glad to be back to my own room. owh, my parents just put a queens sized bed in my room. very nice, n i dont hv to share that with anyone ;P

i thought what i missed a lot in malaysia is the sun and the foods. came back here n started to think that the sun is too hot and not much foods that i missed. but i realised that the most important is not weather n foods, but the people around me. my family. haha how happy i am to see them happy after receiving my gifts from uk. not much really that i can give, but like what they say, the material value is not really important but the act of giving actually is more valuable. its like mastercard ads, nothing we can't buy but happiness

today i went to a store in pasir gudang to buy some grooming items. i wanted to go to tesco actually, a bit far away from my home, but since there was not enough petrol in the car, i hv to changed plan and go to pasir gudang instead.

what i hate about the grooming store there is the nosy promoters. ugh, really annoying. she was trying to change all items inside my basket to a more expensive items. saying that she has used the items for 10 years, (and the notion "look at my hair, its smooth and shiny"; brag) like there is any proof behind her words.

she approached me when i was looking for a face cleanser when she was in the middle of conversation with other buyers. talk about taking all opportunities u hv. but then i left the grooming area to get some snacks. when i came back later, i noticed she was looking for me. God, how pathetic is that. well ok then, i thought she might be able to help me looking for a face cleanser.

the first face cleanser that she showed me was 65 ringgit. n then she said, to supplement that i should take a face cream, another 65 ringgit. i objectively refused to take the items, it was way above my budget (i hv forgotten the prices of goods in malaysia, very different than in uk). so she proceed with a cheaper face cleanser.

but then she started to scan all items inside my basket and tried to change all of them to a more expensive items. now, her goal is clear. i quickly dismissed myself to payment booth before she hv the chance to do that. n surprisingly, just for some snacks and 4 grooming items, i hv to pay about 60 ringgit. luckily i didnt take the face cleanser she showed me. i only brought 70 ringgit.

that is why, i had rather go to tesco than uo pasir gudang. promoters...

6 hari lagi nak exam, 8 hari lagi nak balik

2010-07-09T15:06:00.000-07:00

ahhh so much to do but so little time

nak:

study
download game banyak banyak
bershopping
ebaying
kemas rumah

despite all of this, i still manage to sleep n sleep n sleep for a long time. wake up, wake up syafiq!!! time is essence, u r running out of time whether u know it or not.

n the important part is the exam. this will be the deciding exam whether i will stay in here or not. i hv plan a little bit if things do not happen the way i wish it would but it wont be easy.

im lack of self discipline :'(

15 hari menghilang

2010-07-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

Welcome back to me!!!

After 15 days travelling around Europe i finally came back to Bristol. The trip was very fun and enjoyable. After all, how can a holiday vacation be boring?

Saya terlah merantau ke 8 negara dgan trip kelana convoy tu. Walopun agak pnjg sket, tp saya nak ceritakan trip trip saya selama 15 hari ni:

Belgium

We didn’t spend much time in here. Cume 2 jam jalan jalan kat kedai coklat je. But i bought fridge magnets utk org kampong and a packet of chocolate which taste nowhere close to chocolate. The taste is just horrible. Don’t worry if u never get to taste Belgium chocolates, Cadbury punye lg sedap

Netherland/Holland

Kami bermalam pada hari pertama di netherland. Sbnrnye saya dah penah pg ke netherland sblum ni di schiphol airport tp x keluar jln jln mase tu. Di netherland kami di bawa ke volendam n Amsterdam. Volendam ni mcm kwsn ala ala kampong y terkenal dgan pembuatan cheese dan terompah. X bnyk sngt bende buat kat sini.

Amsterdam pula ialah ibu Negara kpd netherland. Di sini, org sngt mementingkan kebebasan bersuara smpi pelacuran dan marijuana pun dibenarkan di sini. Ade satu jln di Amsterdam namenye red light district, penuh dgan pelacur pelacur berlesen dok tepi tingkap cari pelanggan. Kedai pelacuran berderet pulak tu kat tepi jalan. Lagi best, antara kedai kedai ni diselang selikan dgan restoran mknn halal. Ade sekali tu, tgah jalan jalan tibe tibe ade sorg lelaki belanda ni menjerit “dua puluh lima euro sejam!” . huh, sape r y menyalah gunakan bahse melayu ni.

Germany

Too me, germany is interesting in history but not too much in sightseeing. Kami pergi je Frankfurt and neuschwenstein. Ibu Negara germany, berlin, kitorg x pergi. Frankfurt ni bndr modern y tipikal, bnyk bgunan tinggi n nothing much. Tp kat neuschwenstein, scenerynye agak berbeza. Neuschwenstein terkenal dgan istananya y dikatakan menjadi ilham kpd mr walt Disney ketika mencipta Disney castle. Dkat situ ade dua castle, neuschwenstein and hohenschwangau. i know, nama nama castle die memg haram jadah nak dibace. Tp castle castle die agak cantik lah

Austria

We went to Innsbruck in Austria, not really a popular place. Ibu Negara Austria ialah Vienna, tp kitorg x pg pun Vienna. Kat Austria cume menghabiskan masa kat kedai swarowzki, kedai jual ukiran Kristal y lawa lawa. Kedai swarowzki ni boleh je jumpe kat mana mana. Tp kat Innsbruck ni agak besar lah kedai die

Italy

Tmpt y ditunggu tunggu! Bnyk tmpt kitorg pg kat Italy ni. Y first skali ialah venice. Tmpt ni popular ngan gondola dan terusan terusan y menampakkan bndr venice agak romantic. Tp waktu saya pergi tu hari panas nak mampus, x nmpk langsung keindahannye. Lepas tu plak, maghrib masuk lmbt, pkul 9 malam, jd x sempat nak tgok sunset kat venice, which i think probably akan nampak lg romantic. Ape ape pun, cenderamata kat venice ni sngt unik n susah dicari kat tmpt lain seperti venetian mask, venice lace and murano glass. Dkt venice, kenderaan y korg boleh jumpe hanyalah kenderaan air dan jln jlnnye memg boleh menyesatkan org. Saya ade pengalaman sesat di venice.

The next day we went to Florence atau dlm bahse itali dipanggil Firenze. Florence merupakan tmpt kebangkitan eropah dr zaman gelap menjurus ke era renaissance. Ketika itu, gereja memiliki kuasa agung, dan ilmu mula dihargai semula. Antara bende bende y dpt dilihat ialah patung david ukiran michaelangelo, beberapa gereja zaman renaissance dan jambatan 3 tingkat. Kat sini gak ade bnyk kedai kedai brgan leather

The next day plak jln jln kat rom. Saya sngt teruja nak dtg rom, nak menyingkap tamadun lama y sngt penting bg org org eropah ni. Tp perasaan meleset bile dgar cerita y rom bnyk penyamun. Leceh jugaklah berjalan kat rom nak jaga brg brg berharga. Sehari suntuk kat rom, bnyk bende kitorg lawat antaranye ialah coliseum, forum romana, palatine hill, fountain de trevis, spain steps and pantheon. Oh x lupe juge, Vatican city, the smallest country in the world

X hbes lg jalan jalan kat Italy, next kitorg pg pisa plak. Pisa terkenal dgan menara condong pisa n thats all. n piazza del duomo, y dikatakan sbgi one of the most beautiful square in the world. tp saya pasti ramai y x pnah dgar kan. tu hari dpt naek menara pisa tu (it costs me 15 euro! Mahal nak mampus), but its worth it. Perasaan nak naek menara condong tu lain dprd naik tangga dlm bgnan tegak. Mase nak naek tu mcm nak terjatuh ke semua arah. Antara bnde lain y best kat sini ialah pasar tepi jln y murah murah.

Switzerland

Kalo di itali, sightseeing bnyk kpd bgnan bgnan ciptaan manusia, kat Switzerland, tarikan utama die ialah keindahan semulajadi. Kebnykan tempat di Switzerland ni ialah pergunungan alps. Tmpt bermalam kami ialah lauterbrunnen. Tmpt bermlm kami berada 800 m above sea level dan dikelilingi gunung ganang. Tmptnye sngt sejuk mlm mlm tp siang boleh tahan terik gak.

Dkt sini, saya naek ke puncak jungfraujoh y setinggi 3100 m dr paras laut. Naek gune train je lah, x lah nak mendaki mcm nak naek gunung kinabalu. Tp agak membanggakan gaklah, sebab nak naek mahal beb, 100 euro. At least saya boleh dah ckp y saya dah Berjaya menawan top of Europe. Kalo x sebab terkandas kat stesen train di waktu hujan bersama 7 org y bernasib malang y laen, mungkin saya rase x worth it nak byr 100 euro semata mata nak naek puncak gunung tu. Antara peristiwa menarik ketika trip tu

France

Dekat Italy, panas. Dekat Switzerland, sejuk. Dekat paris, panas balik. So rmi lah org berduyun duyun demam. This is made worst dgan hujan di rom, hujan batu di jungfraujoh dan freezing cold rain shower on the way down ke lauterbrunnen. Tp ni x mematahkan smngt kami utk terus berkelana di city of light, paris. Tp waktu waktu summer mcm nih, x dptlah nak tgok lightnye sebab siang pnjg sngt. Ape ape pun, paris memg bnyk tmpt utk diterokai seperti Eiffel tower, musee’ de louvre, arc de triumph dan notre dame. X kurg jugak jalan y mcm oxford street versi French. Tgokje lah brg brg kat situ, wallet dah kering kontang dah. sehari suntuk kat paris pun masih x cukup lg nak menerokai bandar tu. so insyaAllah nanti nak dtg lagi ke paris.

Tmpt y paling penting sekali di paris ialah Disneyland! Tiket masuk agak mahal ,49 euro (tp kitorg dpt group discount jd 28 euro) tp sngt berbaloi. Kami main kat Disneyland sehari suntuk. Sejak die bukak pintu smpi die dah nak tutup. Kat situ bukannye tmpt maen kanak kanak je, unlike wet world batu pahat, tp bnyk gak ride ride y ganas ganas. Memg best r kat Disneyland tu, rase cam nak pg lagi je.eh, memg pun nak pegi lagi

tick tick tick. 8 negara dah pegi kat europe. mission saya: menjelajah ke seluruh europe. owh, kat italy nak pegi milan. fashion city.

nway, after exam, i will be back to malaysia on 18th july. wait for me dear!

post segera

2010-06-18T16:32:00.000-07:00

hah ingt mee goreng je ke y ade segera? skrg ni mcm mcm boleh dpt secara express. tu hari saya pergi kedai nak beli brg brg masak jumpa nasi bryani segera, frozen dalam freezer. boleh tahan smpi september 2010.

kekdahnya lama x mengepost. skrg ni ala ala busy la. lepas merintih fail satu paper tu hari, ade exam paper laen plak. lepas tu nak kene organise end of year bbq plak n then skrg nih nak pg travel selama 15 hari. ush, resit 17 july sempat plak nak travel 15 hari kan. ampun ampun, i need a time out. kalo x, saya jd mcm bree dlm desperate housewives season 2. jd kepada sesiapa y mengenali diri ni, tolglah doakan y terbaik utk saya ye. terima kasih :)

kekdahnye lagi, saya terpaksa buat post y mengandungi isi y padat sebab lepas ni 2 minggu x kan menghadap laptop. ok make it 1 month sebab internet hbes contract lepas 20 june nanti. merempat kat it lab lah kalo nak berfesbuk nanti.

talk about 20th of june, kat uk, 20th of june merupakan hari bapa. dalam post segera ni saya sediakan hadiah utk ayah saya. a video of lagu ayah dr broery marantika. saya tau ayah saya suka broery :) hadiah x semestinya benda kan?

x lupe juga, adik dan sepupu saya y birthday mereka dah lepas pd 12 jun y lalu. selamat belated. malulah nak wish kat fesbuk bile dah terlambat sngt ni. nway, tu hari busy sngt smpi terlupa lupa (huh, alasan sama je dr dulu smpi skrg)

video utk abah.

lagu asal dr broery marantika ( in case kalo saya main sumbg sngt, anda boleh dgr lagu y ori)

utk adik saya, lagu birthday y diambil dr youtube. sori lah, x sempat nak maenkan lagu. hari ni hectic btol.

expect an empty blog for 1 month. jumpa saya di malaysia! insyaAllah

lupe: esok saya akan memulakan trip kelana convoy keliling europe. pegi amsterdam, germany, switzerland, italy and france. rasenye mcm ade lg...saya beli keychain je lah sbgi cenderamata. tgah kopak ni.

i am in trouble

2010-06-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

i am in the middle of emotional turmoil right now. again. it comes and goes like always and i hate it. it makes me feel lonely. when i am in a bad mood i prefer not to encounter any human beings and just sit alone in my room. but then when i am left alone, i feel even worse and more lonely. no one to comfort me and that makes me want be even more remoted.

making this post makes me sound even more sadder. so much negative energy. i feel so emo, i want to try the black make ups.

i just failed one paper from my april exams and need to resit that. i thought i was prepared for that to happen and that is why i bought a flight ticket after the resit date. but seeing the mark written fail itself, it feels so shocking. actually more to ashame of myself. i am now have becoming more cautious when talking to people, trying not to let the conversation goes to sharing exams results. n now its up to a point where i dont want to see anyone anymore. i have turned down my friend's invitation to her birthday party ;i supposed that might be a good thing, but i am hanging a thread with friendship around here. not everyone in here wants to be a friend with a foreign guy who has problem with his speech.

this feels so bad. i might be born with extra oestrogen in me and that is why i always had this negative emotion. and being a guy, i tend to keep my emotion away from being a topic of discussion. which means everything i feel, i keep it inside of me. and i think now its just getting too much, and it is rotting me away.

is this just a bad day? or bad months? even bad year? i have had this feeling since i was in kyuem.

or am i depressed?

isu semasa, flotilla: humanitarian aids to Gaza

2010-05-31T02:14:00.000-07:00

lately, mcm mcm current issues dr seberang menjadi heboh. ape y saya dgar dari tanah air sendiri, isu 'penghalalan' betting on World Cup and rumah pelacuran. oh, saya berasa sngt malu nak mengaku rakyat Malaysia y majoritinya terdiri drpd org Islam bile dgr berita tersebut. how can the government even take that suggestion into consideration? negara kita ni miskin sngt ke smpi nak cari sumber kewangan dr sumber sumber mcm gitu? pd masa y sama juga saya dgar our neighbouring country, brunei rejected the proposal of selling alcohol in their country. bile fikir camtu, saya rase segan sngt bile berjumpa ngan kawan kawan dr brunei kat sini.

i dont even know how far the issues have go on now. dgar cerita wujudnya pertubuhan penampar lah ape lah. i hope the proposal will be rejected, thats all.

n now, another issues closer to where i am right now, about a humanitarian aids to gaza strip known as flotilla became a big news lately. bukan satu berita y giat dihebohkan kat uk ni ,i cannot find much comments about the issues in local newspapers around here or even in yahoo news. huh, how we can see media bersikap bias di sini. bnyk cerita pasal flotilla ni saya tgok drpd link link y org letak kat facebook. well, havent much to do lately makes me alert to current issues, a bright side of every story.

nway, i dont know the whole story of it to be honest. right now, i only know that the convoy has been attacked by israelian army. the convoy aims is to break through the gaza siege that has been put through for 3 years. since the war in gaza started around last year, bnyk keperluan asas utk masyarakat tempatan x cukup termasuklah keperluan perubatan, mknan dan bahan bahan nak membaiki bangunan e.g. simen, batu bata. the convoy has passed international kastam check, dont bring any weapon with them and they come to gaza with peace.

on the israelian side, the already announced y diorg x kan benarkan kapal kapal convoy ni berlabuh di gaza. yesterday i think, they sent their army raiding the humanitarian ships. wow, diorg memg berdegil x nak kasik bantuan luar kepada rakyat palestin. ok fine, they raided the ships. but today, i just heard news that they attacked the ships. 20 was killed, and i dont know how many were injured. innalillah wa innalillahirrajiun. the ships bring people from around 40 nations worldwide and a few of them are high profile people including one noble laurette (ugh, rase mcm salah eje). attacking the ships was like announcing a war against the world. adakah itu langkah desperate israel?

pihak tentera israel on their self defence menyatakan bahwa the humanitarian convoy stole weapons from them and that triggered the assault. ha.ha. one) why would the humanitarian convoy do that? stole some weapons from the army and use it against the army? plus its not like the people on board the convoy ships have any specialties in army training and two) the army should know better, bila nampak org org biasa memegang senjata, the first thing u do is reason with them not straight away do the pre emptive strike. statement desperate israel?

in strategy game, this is what we called as a flaw move. right now, seluruh dunia tgah buat demonstrasi mengenai isu ini. rakyat turkey n lebanon tgah buat demonstrasi besar besaran, france mengutuk tindakan kejam israel, sweden, spain dan greece memanggil segera israel ambassador di negara mereka even european union is now calling full enquiry on israel action. ape y lbey menarik ialah sesetgah ngara arab menyatakan mereka akan mengambil langkah esok sedangkan bnyk negara lain dah pun mula demonstrasi skrg. hmmm......

i am really interested with the progress of the event after this. this surely will be carved into history. nampaknye israel sedang berhadapan dgan seluruh dunia, they are up against the world. adekah sekutu israel akan terus menyokong israel lepas ni? we will see.

for me, whoever came with the idea flotilla is a genius. and very courageous.
may God help them all on their trip. my pray will be with them, Allahuakbar!

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